Current song: Crawlin' - Linkin Park

Yes, I'm fucking pissed. Not at anything, not at anybody (though I should be rather pissed at someone at the instant for not showing up), but at the fact that I have to teach.

I hate teaching.

Well, I don't mind if it's the informal thing like:

A: "How do you do this again?"

B: "Oh, just do this, this, this... etc."

A: "Seriously/Really?"

B: "I think so..... kua..."

But when it comes to formal teaching....... for fuck's sake, I'm only 20 years old, with totally NO teaching ex-fucking-perience! My apologies for my language, but I'm in a rather pissy mood that just becoming more and more shitty as I think about it. Life is SUCH a bitch. One minute, it gives you rainbows and sunshine, and the next, it turns around and bites you back in the ass. And of course, anyone who knows me well enough to realize that I've used two or more 'fucks' in a sentence, followed by a whole lot of other inappropriate words will know that I'm seriously pissed off.

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!! IT'S ALREADY COMPLICATED ENOUGH WITHOUT HAVING ANYTHING ELSE TO FUCK IT UP MORE!!!! I DON'T NEED ANYTHING MORE TO MAKE IT EVEN SHITTIER THAN IT ALREADY IS!!!!

I can hardly understand why the fuck this is happening to me.... I'm not even a teacher. I'm just a friggin student with a lot of work in the uni and to top it off, I don't even get sundays off because I have Dance activities on that day too. And my Saturdays are almost always busy. This sucks. To the max. Because I don't know how to teach, and I don't know if I CAN teach. So why pile this fucking shit on me and make me do it when I'VE FUCKING SAID "NO" A HUNDRED FUCKING TIMES OVER?! Want me to spell it out with my ass?! DAMMIT!

Urrrgghhhh....

This is not helping at all. I can't calm down. Not even while I'm sitting and RPing and having a chat with a good friend (who claims it's for my mental health). I'm still seeing red. If only I could just get out of where I have to go and never go back... yeah. That might be a good idea... if I could move out, that is. Cause all I'm in now, is deep shit. Yeah, that's it. Tell me I HAVE to teach, then give me less then twenty-fucking-four hours to prepare a lesson.

Whoopee-freakin'-doo.

Life is a fuckin' bitch of shit, yeah.

Oh well... time for me to go shit it up even more. Catch ya'll later when I'm feeling a bit more better. Blah.

Current Mood: Satisfied

Current Song: Monochrome No Kiss (SID)

Yesh! I'm satisfied! And why am I satisfied? Because I made an AMV all by myself, mwahahaha! >:D *expects to hear flames from Leo later on*. Okay, okay.... nothing to be proud of, really. ;P I'm just a bit excited cause it's my first time making an AMV and it turned out just the way I wanted it to be. Originally, I wanted to make an AMV out of 'Monochrome no Kiss' and Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) by combining both openings with the song, but..... seems that there's none that I could find, since YouTube took them down or something. =/

So while I was bemoaning the fact, my eyes turned towards my side and fell on the Vampire Knight DVD box that Kelly had gotten me for my birthday. I stared at it for about five seconds before I picked it up and said, "Why not Vampire Knight? Let's make an Opening Song for Vampire Knight out of Monochrome No Kiss instead of Kuroshitsuji, then."

Kaname-sama: ^^;

And so began the scouring on YouTube for the videos that I wanted, aka:

Vampire Knight Opening

Vampire Knight Opening ver. 2 (Maria Kurenai/Shizuka Hiou)

Vampire Knight Ending

Vampire Knight Guilty Opening

Vampire Knight Guilty Ending

And armed with only 4 (plus the few seconds of Maria's lesbian debut with Yuuki) short clips, I began to create a music video, at 3:45am. I only got up to half a song when Windows Movie Maker began crapping out on me, le gasp, so I finally gave up on it, saved and went to bed. Problem was, I still couldn't sleep, since I had scenes running through my head, and before I knew it, I was BACK to making the video, this time pulling and cutting and timing scenes in my mind.

With everything finished and set for the real thing in my brain, I fell asleep.... only to wake up 3 hours later due to the cleaning lady coming to clean up the earthquake zone of my room. May God bless the poor woman for having to brave my room. ^^; I'll admit again.... I'm a very messy person. The amount of junk and clothes on the second bunk of my bed....... Anyway, it was time to hit the computer again and continue with the vision that I had in mind.

It took me many hours and a lot of frustration and wailing at the screen (And WMM that kept hanging), but in the end, I came up with this:

And yes, I'm VERY happy and VERY satisfied. ^^ Leave me a comment on my YT account, I'd LOVE it. XD

PS: I bought green colored contact lenses. *grins* I'm loving it.

Current Mood: Okay

Current Song: Somnus Nemoris - Final Fantasy XII Versus theme song

I guess.

I don't have a PS3, but I'm hankering for one. I NEED the damn PS3! Lol, FFXII is the reason why I want one. I've watched the gameplay, and it's awesome! The graphics are incredible as always, and we have a hot guy as usual. XDDD Not to mention dear Lightning Farron.

Seriously, this is my bi side speaking. >.> Having a crush on Snow Villers (who's voiced by Daisuke Ono for one thing. He did the voice for Sebastian in Kuroshitsuji too. Got me screaming) is one thing, but falling for Lightning Farron..... o.o. Not to mention that she's voiced by Maaya Sakamoto, also the voice of Aeris Gainsbrough from FF: Advent Children. So I hate Aeris, yes... but I changed my mind when I heard that she's doing Lightning too, because honestly. Have you seen how Lightning looks like? Silly question really.... she's the main theme of my blog. *Facepalms* But yeah.

She's one hot chick. With a sexy voice to boot.

Oh God, I did not just say that! D:

Ah well. So for now, my blog layout and theme will be Final Fantasy 13: Lightning. Might change it to Snow next month or something, I'm not too sure. I'm stuck between Snow, Serah and Vanille. But Snow is winning, so yeah. XD I'll keep it as FF13 until "Versus" or "Agito" comes out, whichever comes first. Personally, I'm hoping "Versus" will come out first, because Square Enix has teased us enough with all those trailers about Noctis and his gang.

The question still remains:

What are the real names of Shotgun Guy, Scar-Eyed Guy and Glasses Guy? XD

But so far, I've seen so MANY Shotgun GuyXNoctis pairings. It's hilarious, these yaoi things! Omg, it's like Shogun Guy is getting more fandom than poor Scar-Eyed Guy and Glasses Guy. *shakes head*

Though.... a LightningXNoctis pairing would be interesting since they're so much alike. XD

"Versus" seems to be the "ying" to FF13, which is the "yang". Like.. darkness and light. Lightning is Light, while Noctis is Darkness. Interesting concept. Well, not that I'm saying Square Enix has that concept, but each time I look at it, I just see it. Ying and Yang.

See what I mean? (Lightning Farron from Final Fantasy XII on the left and Prince Noctis Lucis Caelum from Final Fantasy Versus XII on the right)

However, I'm still not sure what Agito will be about.

Games to get?

Final Fantasy XII

Final Fantasy Versus XII

Final Fantasy Agito XII

All from the Fabula Nova Crystallis theme. ^____^

Oh, and btw... Shiva sisters= Awesome set of wheels.

And a hot set of bodies for mechanical women.

PS: Is it just me, or does their summoning remind anyone else greatly of those Rullsakas from DMC4? O__o