Wednesday 25 June 2008
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Emo
I'm thinking of getting an emo hairstyle. Cause I'm a really emo gal at the instant. XD I don't really know why, either. It's just that feeling of wanting to sit in a corner and stuff and so... I even wrote a poem... again!
BELOVED
Love is nothing, the blood dripping
From a thousand scars the wolrd sees not
Crimson river of hate and pain
Years of loving all in vain
Trust me now, oh my beloved
Empty shell of flesh and blood
Screaming, crying, my soul cries out
Beloved, you have silenced me now
I posted it on Emo Love Quotes, and I don't know how many people would read it, lol. Anyway, I think I know what style I want. I want the razor cut style, with my bangs falling into my eyes. Not forgetting the crimson highlights that I want. Now all that's left is to fish out my eye liner, cause I'm emo like that. Hehehe.
I'm gonna emo myself and go to college. I wonder what the hell people are going to say, but I don't give a rat's ass. I'm me and I love being emo. Deal with it.
Don't like it? Then people who don't like it can go sit in a corner for all I now. I'm not changing. I'm the boss of no one! :P
Still trying to transmute gold on 10:23
Tuesday 24 June 2008
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Emo-ing My Days Away...
Emo, emo, emo. I'm being an emo little girl for the month. Yeah, I don't know why... I just feel like sitting in a corner, lol. XD I told Eunice that I was a Blair Waldorf for the whole of last week, but she kinda liked it. She likes Gossip Girl too much, I think. But this week.. I'm feeling strangely emo. Like.. uh, I'm having my hair falling over my eye right now.. and I've been listening to wayyyy too much depressing songs, up to the point where I'm depressed. I think though... it's his fault.
Well, Dante came online last night, and I was really pissed (Still am pissed actually) that he got together with Lady in RP. Okay, so it's not supposed to affect how I feel in RL, but it does hurt, ya know... maybe it's the fact that he stays so far away from me, and I can't really put my full trust in him, though I do. Well anyway, when he came on, I was like, "Are you done messing with my head yet?" I didn't really ask him the question, but I yelled at the screen, crying all the way. Maybe he felt something, I don't know, but he told me he loved me and he missed me so much. He had some family problem to take care of, so he wasn't on as much as he should be. I know he doesn't love Lady like he loves me in RL, but I can't help but feel a bit.. hurt.
I mean, it does hurt to see someone you love marry a different person, right?
Yeah, so maybe this is why I'm feeling so depressed at the instant. But I still love him. I... may be a foolish little girl to put all my trust in this relationship, but maybe I'm so desperate for love that I just want to trust him. Either way... I love him with my heart and soul, and no matter what happens... I will still love him to the end.
I really am sorry, Dante.. if you're reading this. I don't mean to make you feel bad. I love you and I miss you so much...
Sigh.... I'm in college now, writing this during break. Hopefully I'll feel better by the end of the day and come back to write down another post. Yeah, that's what I'll do. I have business class now.. so... I'm gone.
Jade out.
(Be back later to write another post when I get home.)
Still trying to transmute gold on 15:14
