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Saturday 30 August 2008

Report: Super Awake

It's Friday... It's Friday... Or is it Saturday? Early Saturday it must be, then... ugh, yeah. It's 2:47 am according to my computer, and I'm still wide awake so I thought of coming to exhaust my mind a bit, write in my blog.

Hell yeah, I can't sleep.

Probably because I was using mobile to send messages to Vergil on MySpace..... >.> *sheepish piggy look* (*whines* I can't do a piggy avy with my keyboard!!! Nuuu!!!)

Anyway.... I just need to crap a bit here and there, maybe state what's on my blank mind... or just let my fingers type away. Yeah, that's it. Let my fingers type away. Ooh, you know what? Avril Lavigne's concert was in town today at Stadium Merdeka! And it like FREAKING NEXT to my college! T^T I didn't have classes today... I would have so totally gone and gatecrashed the area... sobsob.. and I so wanted to meet Avril too! I'm like one of her biggest fans or something. Yes, or something. Because I didn't know Avril until my cousin Rusti introduced me to her first album. Then I fell in love with her and has been in love with her songs ever since.

And Vergil's logged off MySpace. Damn, because then I would have came down for nothing.. Should I go check Neopets, I wonder..? o.O

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3:05am
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I wanna go see Death Race... Uuuuuu!!!!

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3:17am
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It's a jackal, if you want to know. ^^

Okay... I really have nothing else to write and Vergil's gone, so I'm outta here too... Damn the guy.. He leaves when things get really interesting...

Still trying to transmute gold on 02:46

Friday 22 August 2008

Report: It's Over....

The Olympics are finally over, with lots of bangs and a reall wicked closing ceremony. Hey, at least Malaysia managed to get a silver. XD Kudos to Lee Chong Wei, who did really well until Lin Dan crushed him to the ground. Not saying that Malaysia is totally pathetic, but in five years time, we may be able to get the gold for Malaysia! ^^ Who knows?

The computer is finally back in order and working, lol. After that short circuit, I had to use my phone instead, and it's really costing me lots of money. But I'm in college right now, and using the "slowest-effin-computer-in-the-world", and I'm hungry cause I haven't gone for lunch yet. Reason? I was checking up and updating my MySpace, then learning how to use a lighter from "K". And talking about MySpace, check this out;

Kain's friend hooked me up with my ex, Steven, so we're talking. Not long after, Vergil took off without a goodbye with a different girl. And Brian has been wanting to end this, so I ended.. or rather, terminated our relationship online. So what are the odds? A straight flush, maybe? Oh... and surprisingly... Steven STILL remembers my name. He called me Steph. Hmmmm.. so maybe the odds has increased... a full house? Lol... XD

I've been a bit depressed over the Vergil thingy, but we're talking things out on MySpace, and I am back! Well, the main reason is because revision classes has started in college and it signals the approaching exams. So I can't mope around, but I have to STUDY, STUDY, STUDY! (Millitary march) And yeah, at night when no one's looking, I can be as depressed as I want to be, sit in a corner, emo about my horrible life and cry, maybe cut a wrist or two..... NOT!

Okay, I'm getting hungry. And I mean, really hungry. I only had a cup of milo for breakfast cause I came to college early in the morning for the sole purpose to listen to a dialouge session with Lord Anthony May from the UK. It was a nice session, though my head started hurting... I swear I have to go see a doctor... these headaches are unnatural...

Alright, then. I guess that's all for now... I really wanna go eat and I'm stuck between going to Mc D's as usual, or make the trip of KFC so I can pass by LuluBelle and check out how much a LB purse costs.....

Ciao. Adios, amigos...

Still trying to transmute gold on 16:53

Friday 8 August 2008

Report: Auspicious Day

Guess what? It's FATT/ FATT/ FATT today! XD Lol, no... if you don't know what I mean, it's the 8th of August 2008. A very auspicious date for those of us who are chinese. Because in Cantonese, 8 means fatt.. and fatt means PROSPERITY! ^^ So today is a VERY auspicious day, though in the hungry ghost month, but I"m sure there's a lot that will get married on this day.

Damn, wish I could too. It's a once in an eternity chance, and it's only going to happen today in this lifetime.

(Time cut- Listening to: Wiccan Lullaby)

Anyway, today is also going to be the opening for the Beijing Olympics. Hopefully I can get back in time to catch it because I heard it's really going to be good. Not only am I Chinese, it's CHINA, the country where my ancestors come from, so... maybe I'm a bit excited about watching it. Heck, I think the whole world is excited about it at the instant.

(Time cut- Listening to: Wytches Chant)

Erm, yes, I'm listening to Wiccan songs from Inkkubus Sukkubus. I love those songs, especially the circle one. It's been a while since I listened to Wiccan songs... and somehow today I totally need peace of mind. I need something to calm myself, cause I don't really feel good right now. *Sighs* I don't know why, but I feel as if a storm is brewing in me. And hopefully repetition of the Wytches Chant can cool me off.

Honestly, I feel so close to using Black Magick right now... but I tell myself not to, because I don't want my soul tainted black. It's already tainted as it is... it doesn't need to be any blacker.

Alright, then... I guess I'll stop here for now. I need to go look at some Wiccan sites to clam myself down a bit. I feel so alone and troubled... I need the Goddess with me.

Still trying to transmute gold on 15:13

Thursday 7 August 2008

Report: Stressed

Yep.. I'm stressed. I can't get ANYTHING into my head at the instant. >.< mock exams are like a week plus away and yet I just can't study! okay, so I am ATTEMPTING to study, but nothing can get into my head!!! I'm going out of my mind!!! Arrggghhhhhhh!!!!! I feel like I'm gonna die anytime soon, but then again, Dante from MS told me not to stress so much. He told me to relax a bit, then maybe the mental block will go away.

I'm literally freaking out and panicking now. I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die!!! Ahhhh!!!! NoooO!!!!

Oh man......... if only I know what to do about this.

Bad enough that I'm already banned from the computer... but I get my time sneaking on in the middle of the night, at the cost of sleep, of course. And my phone has internet (at the price of MONEY!! $$). And yeah. The best? Use it in college. I get to come home late though... XD

So, the time now is 5:02pm on a Thrusday evening and it's raining outside. Don't mind getting caught in the rain, though not like this afternoon where I was totally drenched. I'm like a wet cat when in the rain for some reason. It's like getting my hair totally wet, and it's a bother because it's cold in class. Meeooowww... I'ma cat that hates the rain, lol. ^^

nah, I actually like the rain. just don't like getting drenched on a college day. XDXDXD

Listening to: Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven. >.> Don't know why. It's a stress relief.

I miss chu, DANTE!!!!!! *wails* I miss the bantering between us!!! I miss the little fights and the little talks we both have... okay, so maybe it's my fault I got into the mess, but.. nah.. hold on a minute. Maybe it's mine, maybe it's yours, we won't know, eh?

okay, that's all for today... at least. I'm heading home....

Jade out. ^^

Still trying to transmute gold on 16:57