There Is Nothing Good Or Bad, But Thinking Makes It So

Beauteen

2010-12-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

Current Song: Na Na Na (My Chemical Romance)

Current Mood: Satisfied

So the new year was coming, and I realized it was time for me to re-dye my hair again. I don't do it often, only once a year, and then I let my hair grow out until the year passes before I go for hair maintenance again. Eg; dye, trim, cut, whatever. And this time I thought to do it DIY since I've already gotten my hair trimmed to get rid of those crinkled ends that came from this year's curling and stuff, so a nice surf of the internet and a trip to Watsons was in order.

I originally wanted to buy Liese bubble hair dye because let's face it; I know squat about dyeing hair, and Liese looked vveeerrrryyyy attractive since all I needed to do was... pump foam and splash it on for an even finish. But the reports I went through on the net said that Liese wasn't reliable, and the color washed out easily, though I think it's the same with all hair dye. Anyway, I went to Watsons and they were selling a box of Liese for RM33.39, I think? I was going to pick it up off the shelf, but something else caught my eye.

Nana did. Nana, the manga/anime.

Okay, okay, maybe it WASN'T Nana per se, but it was Tachihara Aya, a character drawn by my favorite mangaka of all time (yes, the mangaka of Nana and Paradise Kiss), Ai Yazawa-sensei, for the Beauteen box illustration. The first time I saw this, it was in Guardian somewhere early this year, and I just about brought the shop down (and startled the poor lady next to me) by screaming, "HOMGHOMGHOMG!! AI YAZAWA!!!!!" I'm a Nana/Paradise Kiss fan. Get over it. Back to the topic, Beauteen caught my eye because of the illustrations done by my favorite mangaka, and because the price was cheap. Way cheaper: RM18.90. I had to do some comparing then, and Beauteen won because there were more positive reviews about it, though the application was a bit harder because there was no foam, just a bottle and a comb-nozzle to comb through the hair.

That, and the box was so pretty. *facepalm*

In any case, Beauteen won the fight and in the end, I carried home a box of Beauteen Hair Dye in Pink Beige, character Tachihara Aya, illustrated by Ai Yazawa-sensei.

(Pretty, isn't it? Here's the Singapore website for more information: http://www.hoyu.com.sg/Beauteen/)

Emoing

2010-04-04T21:04:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Emo... though I don't want to be emo now since I'm listening to MCR
Current Song: Welcome To The Black Parade (My Chemical Romance)

Yeah, I'm emo.

....

Dunno if you wanna call it emo or whatever, but I'm just feeling a bit down.

And I feel poetic. o____o;

Something is wrong. XDDD

I meant to blog about 'Clash Of The Titans' since I went to watch it, but meh. I don't think I'll do it know when my mood's like this. I'll do it tomorrow, then. >.>

*big sigh*

I feel like curling up in a corner all alone....

Uhhhhhhhhh..............

2010-03-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm getting scolded for something I can't remember. =/

........

Unfairness of it all.

I don't remember a thing! D:

What did I do?

WTF..... =___=;

Now I'm pissed.

:$

Step Into A Perfect World

2010-03-04T18:45:00.002+08:00

Current Song: Perfect World (Henley)
Current Mood: Contemplative

I seem to be having a problem.

I used to play a Winged Elf Cleric/Priest on Perfect World (MY-EN), but I gave up after a while because of:
1) I wasn't an experienced player aka a n00b
2) I wasn't careful and frankly didn't pay attention to stat allocation
3) I soon grew bored of the character's slow leveling
4) I admit, it was the flying that got me interested in the Winged Elf in the first place.

So I soon gave up after getting interested in a Were Fox (Venomancer in the PW International version) chara, and eventually I fell in love with it. Not just because I had the ability to tame pets and transform into a fox, the WF has a rather... erm.... well, let's say 'sexy' is in the air that surrounds them. XD Nah, I'm joking. I level up faster as a WF because of my pet's support, meaning I don't take direct hits. Gameplay got rather fun and all (when you minus the computer's lagging. ;P), but eventually I turned back to the WE Cleric chara because I miss flying.

Now my problem is this. I've made up my mind to make a Light Armor (LA) Cleric, but unfortunately, the problem is stats and skills. And the debates I've seen on random websites about LA Clerics vs Magic Robe (MR) Clerics is pretty..... well, let's say I've got doubts in my head now. For one, we probably have less MAG resistance, low HP and lower MAG, HP and MP rate than a MR Cleric. Con is that we might survive a bit better when it comes to PvP, but then again, who would want to PvP a hapless, defenseless Elf that has no major in attack???

Answer: Evil PKers. =___='''''

Back to the subject, there were lots of ppl saying that LA would not be a good support Cleric, but then again, I say even with all the buffs, "A live Cleric is better than a dead Cleric". I'm not aiming to be a Tanker (though with my WF, I'm a mixture of Tanker, Lurer and Supporter), but more of Supporter. The LA is just for my survival, though I really admit, the stat allocation is a pain the neck. Already I've (hopefully not) wasted 10 stat points by allocating this:

INT: 5
CON: 1
STR: 2
AGI: 2

And then after a bit of researching, I found out it's better if I dump it in like this:

INT: 6
STR: 2
AGI: 2

Well, at least I've only wasted 10. Any more and I'd be deleting and restarting all over again. *Sighs* The more I think I about it, I feel like it's a waste, but since I've ALREADY made up my mind to make a Light Armor Cleric, I'm going to stick with my decision, no one's going to change it. I'll work with that Cleric no matter what.

That is... if I make it up to a high level before becoming bored. T___T

Ill Giudizio Finale Sta Yer Essere Emesso

2010-02-06T15:19:00.002+08:00

Current Song: Katayoku no Tori (Shikata Akiko)

Current mood: Okay

Lol.

It's Chinese New Year's Eve.

And Natalie's sitting next to me right now, on the couch while we both type on our laptops, getting me into K-Pop. LAWL. And she's giving me the... uh.... hm... what should I call that...? Spoils of war. Kinda like... hand me downs? XDXDXD

ON ANOTHER NOTE.

its my right.

stephanie, your computer sucks.

anyway.

its my right to choose the best for me,

BECAUSE THEY WERE MINE FIRST,

and without me,

you wouldnt even know they existed.

so dont you DARE take them away or even THINK of TRYING to even put -0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001%

of your eye on them.

so there.

PUBLIC DECLARATION OKAY.

kthxbai(:

love,

natalieeeeeeee(:

So yeah. That was Natalie for ya. XDXD Just to make a point. It's CNY eve, people! Can't believe how fast time flies sometimes.... it's already the year of the Tiger. And we have reunion dinner tonight, lunch tomorrow, and family gathering at Eunice's place on Monday. It's like... whoa. Lots of stuff to do, lots of places to go. *shrugs* Me, I'm just chilling and hanging out with my cousins.

WHO SAID A 20 YEAR OLD CAN'T HANG OUT WITH THE CUZZIES SHE'S GROWN UP WITH ALL HER LIFE?!?!?!?!

Nothing's gonna change anyway. XD Except for me sitting in a corner and reading 'First King of Shannara'. I went to the UniTAR library to see if they had Darren Shan, but to my disappointment, they didn't. Instead, I found Terry Brooks, so I decided to pick up the prequel to 'Sword of Shannara' and see how it was.

And yes, you got it. I'm hooked. *shakes head* I'm so hooked to it. Terry Brooks is awesome. I'm adding him to my list of favourite authors. I just got to chapter 18, I think... it's kinda sad that Tay had to die... :( He had the most optimistic and cheery personality of the lot. I quite hope Bremen doesn't die either. Well.... I could spoil myself by browsing through the book till I get to the end, or just go through the internet to search, but I'd rather not. Remember, I just picked up the book, so I want to enjoy it to the fullest.

Also, Bremen kind of reminds me of Raguel. =/ Don't ask me why, he just does. Perhaps it's this similarities.

See:

1) Raguel and Bremen know some form of magic. (one's a Wizard, the other's a Druid)

2) They're both old... but don't seem old. (Holy Grail vs Druid Sleep)

3) They both have adopted daughters. (Jade vs Mareth)

4) Who are interested in learning some form of magic. (Elementalist vs Empath)

5) They both don't get angry easily and always keep a calm air around them.

6) And they're also dish out good advise.

That and a whole lot more once I finish up the book. Then I'll try to make a whole list of comparisons. Not that I have nothing to do... I actually have a shit-load of assignments to complete. XDDDD

Okay, that's it for now. I'll be back later to countdown to CNY... with NAT! If she's home by then. XD

Crawlin' In My Skin

2010-01-30T17:35:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Pissy

Current song: Crawlin' - Linkin Park

Yes, I'm fucking pissed. Not at anything, not at anybody (though I should be rather pissed at someone at the instant for not showing up), but at the fact that I have to teach.

I hate teaching.

Well, I don't mind if it's the informal thing like:

A: "How do you do this again?"

B: "Oh, just do this, this, this... etc."

A: "Seriously/Really?"

B: "I think so..... kua..."

But when it comes to formal teaching....... for fuck's sake, I'm only 20 years old, with totally NO teaching ex-fucking-perience! My apologies for my language, but I'm in a rather pissy mood that just becoming more and more shitty as I think about it. Life is SUCH a bitch. One minute, it gives you rainbows and sunshine, and the next, it turns around and bites you back in the ass. And of course, anyone who knows me well enough to realize that I've used two or more 'fucks' in a sentence, followed by a whole lot of other inappropriate words will know that I'm seriously pissed off.

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!! IT'S ALREADY COMPLICATED ENOUGH WITHOUT HAVING ANYTHING ELSE TO FUCK IT UP MORE!!!! I DON'T NEED ANYTHING MORE TO MAKE IT EVEN SHITTIER THAN IT ALREADY IS!!!!

I can hardly understand why the fuck this is happening to me.... I'm not even a teacher. I'm just a friggin student with a lot of work in the uni and to top it off, I don't even get sundays off because I have Dance activities on that day too. And my Saturdays are almost always busy. This sucks. To the max. Because I don't know how to teach, and I don't know if I CAN teach. So why pile this fucking shit on me and make me do it when I'VE FUCKING SAID "NO" A HUNDRED FUCKING TIMES OVER?! Want me to spell it out with my ass?! DAMMIT!

Urrrgghhhh....

This is not helping at all. I can't calm down. Not even while I'm sitting and RPing and having a chat with a good friend (who claims it's for my mental health). I'm still seeing red. If only I could just get out of where I have to go and never go back... yeah. That might be a good idea... if I could move out, that is. Cause all I'm in now, is deep shit. Yeah, that's it. Tell me I HAVE to teach, then give me less then twenty-fucking-four hours to prepare a lesson.

Whoopee-freakin'-doo.

Life is a fuckin' bitch of shit, yeah.

Oh well... time for me to go shit it up even more. Catch ya'll later when I'm feeling a bit more better. Blah.

Rrraaaaggggh!

2010-01-28T10:58:00.002+08:00

I can't log into my main Alteil account!

>.<

That is all.

I'm currently sitting in the Cyber Cafe in Kelana Mall after washing my hair at the salon on the first floor. I'm killing time since I've been here since 10am. Would have been 9am, but there was a jam, thank God. >.>

Dayumit! Lemme in!!!! I wanna use my Gowen deck, not my Falkow!!!!

Yasashiku Sukutte, Uwakuchibiru De Asobu

2010-01-24T20:07:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Satisfied

Current Song: Monochrome No Kiss (SID)

Yesh! I'm satisfied! And why am I satisfied? Because I made an AMV all by myself, mwahahaha! >:D *expects to hear flames from Leo later on*. Okay, okay.... nothing to be proud of, really. ;P I'm just a bit excited cause it's my first time making an AMV and it turned out just the way I wanted it to be. Originally, I wanted to make an AMV out of 'Monochrome no Kiss' and Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) by combining both openings with the song, but..... seems that there's none that I could find, since YouTube took them down or something. =/

So while I was bemoaning the fact, my eyes turned towards my side and fell on the Vampire Knight DVD box that Kelly had gotten me for my birthday. I stared at it for about five seconds before I picked it up and said, "Why not Vampire Knight? Let's make an Opening Song for Vampire Knight out of Monochrome No Kiss instead of Kuroshitsuji, then."

Kaname-sama: ^^;

And so began the scouring on YouTube for the videos that I wanted, aka:

Vampire Knight Opening

Vampire Knight Opening ver. 2 (Maria Kurenai/Shizuka Hiou)

Vampire Knight Ending

Vampire Knight Guilty Opening

Vampire Knight Guilty Ending

And armed with only 4 (plus the few seconds of Maria's ~~lesbian~~ debut with Yuuki) short clips, I began to create a music video, at 3:45am. I only got up to half a song when Windows Movie Maker began crapping out on me, le gasp, so I finally gave up on it, saved and went to bed. Problem was, I still couldn't sleep, since I had scenes running through my head, and before I knew it, I was BACK to making the video, this time pulling and cutting and timing scenes in my mind.

With everything finished and set for the real thing in my brain, I fell asleep.... only to wake up 3 hours later due to the cleaning lady coming to clean up the earthquake zone of my room. May God bless the poor woman for having to brave my room. ^^; I'll admit again.... I'm a very messy person. The amount of junk and clothes on the second bunk of my bed....... Anyway, it was time to hit the computer again and continue with the vision that I had in mind.

It took me many hours and a lot of frustration and wailing at the screen (And WMM that kept hanging), but in the end, I came up with this:

And yes, I'm VERY happy and VERY satisfied. ^^ Leave me a comment on my YT account, I'd LOVE it. XD

PS: I bought green colored contact lenses. *grins* I'm loving it.

Somnus Nemoris

2010-01-10T18:12:00.005+08:00

Current Mood: Okay

Current Song: Somnus Nemoris - Final Fantasy XII Versus theme song

Yes, it's a New Year, and yes, it's a new blog layout again. ^^; I know, I know.... but I gotta blame it on Final Fantasy XIII (13), the latest game from Square Enix. Technically, only the Japanese version is out for now, but the English version will be coming out in June or July.

I guess.

I don't have a PS3, but I'm hankering for one. I NEED the damn PS3! Lol, FFXII is the reason why I want one. I've watched the gameplay, and it's awesome! The graphics are incredible as always, and we have a hot guy as usual. XDDD Not to mention dear Lightning Farron.

Seriously, this is my bi side speaking. >.> Having a crush on Snow Villers (who's voiced by Daisuke Ono for one thing. He did the voice for Sebastian in Kuroshitsuji too. Got me screaming) is one thing, but falling for Lightning Farron..... o.o. Not to mention that she's voiced by Maaya Sakamoto, also the voice of Aeris Gainsbrough from FF: Advent Children. So I hate Aeris, yes... but I changed my mind when I heard that she's doing Lightning too, because honestly. Have you seen how Lightning looks like? Silly question really.... she's the main theme of my blog. *Facepalms* But yeah.

She's one hot chick. With a sexy voice to boot.

Oh God, I did not just say that! D:

Ah well. So for now, my blog layout and theme will be Final Fantasy 13: Lightning. Might change it to Snow next month or something, I'm not too sure. I'm stuck between Snow, Serah and Vanille. But Snow is winning, so yeah. XD I'll keep it as FF13 until "Versus" or "Agito" comes out, whichever comes first. Personally, I'm hoping "Versus" will come out first, because Square Enix has teased us enough with all those trailers about Noctis and his gang.

The question still remains:

What are the real names of Shotgun Guy, Scar-Eyed Guy and Glasses Guy? XD

But so far, I've seen so MANY Shotgun GuyXNoctis pairings. It's hilarious, these yaoi things! Omg, it's like Shogun Guy is getting more fandom than poor Scar-Eyed Guy and Glasses Guy. *shakes head*

Though.... a LightningXNoctis pairing would be interesting since they're so much alike. XD

"Versus" seems to be the "ying" to FF13, which is the "yang". Like.. darkness and light. Lightning is Light, while Noctis is Darkness. Interesting concept. Well, not that I'm saying Square Enix has that concept, but each time I look at it, I just see it. Ying and Yang.

See what I mean? (Lightning Farron from Final Fantasy XII on the left and Prince Noctis Lucis Caelum from Final Fantasy Versus XII on the right)

However, I'm still not sure what Agito will be about.

Games to get?

Final Fantasy XII

Final Fantasy Versus XII

Final Fantasy Agito XII

All from the Fabula Nova Crystallis theme. ^____^

Oh, and btw... Shiva sisters= Awesome set of wheels.

And a hot set of bodies for mechanical women.

PS: Is it just me, or does their summoning remind anyone else greatly of those Rullsakas from DMC4? O__o

Hi Miss Alice

2009-10-14T01:44:00.002+08:00

Current mood: Tired/Grumpy
Current song: Still Doll (Kanon Wakeshima)

Oh my God.

I'm tired.

Nuff said.

I have not been sleeping for a week, only stumbling to bed at the break of dawn.

Why?

Cause I've been playing Celestial Destroyer and power-leveling. I should be in a nocturnal guild that's there, some group called Dracula, cause we play when the sun goes down, and sleep when the sun comes up again.

Auuugghhhh.... and I'm so grumpy! D:

Not to mention the fact that I have a shit-load of things to do. I still need to mail Kevin that essay that I have NOT gotten to doing yet.... and something else I'm supposed to do, but...

I'm

So

Fuckin

Lazy.

That's possibly about it. =___= Dante scrapped his character, so he's Zethan for now, not a problem for me because we agreed on it, and I made a new character to match his. That means Jade is on hiatus for a bit, and I'm Aylen Faye Luex as of now. What about Lilith-Anne Vermouth? :(

I miss K'.

RP is dying. Well, Xion/Nero provides good RP for her, and Zethan entertains me with Aylen.... but I miss the brain cracking RPs I have to do when K''s around. Anyway, I have major writer's block too.

MAJOR WRITER'S BLOCK!!!

RP has totally sucked the energy to write out of me, cause more of my writing goes into continuing a story, and it doesn't help that I write novellas. Meaning that... yeah. My replies end up 6-10 paragraphs long, and its LONG!

One of the reasons I haven't started on Kevin's essay yet.

=______=;;;

Oh my GOD!!! I'm tired! I'm so tired, DAMMIT!!

That's it, I'm outta this hood. Dig ya'll later.

Kurayami No Naka De Mutsumiau

2009-10-04T20:00:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Happy :D
Current song: Lacrimosa (Kalafina)

And he's back. *grins* Yup, Dante's back home at long last, after two weeks of leaving me alone. Huhuhu... ^_____^ I don't really have anything much to write today lol, but just wanted to spill out my sunshine and happiness onto my (emo again) blog so everyone can see. *wink wink*

Oh, and yes. My layout's changed.

Again.

From Ash Crimson to uh.. emo.. again. ^^; I know everyone is probably thinking, "What?? Again?? Doesn't she ever get tired of changing her layout once every few months?" or "Emo?? Not again..... what is it with her and emo ALL the time?" Well, truth is I wanted to find something a bit nicer like those Japanese blogs (have you seen them?? They're super awesome! They have all this little gadgets, with cursors that sprinkle fairy dust when you move around the page, and stuff on the layout that you can click and drag... the Japanese are GENIUSES!) or perhaps something to do with Supernatural (Dean fetish, lol.), but I couldn't find any nice ones. So I went over to create blog where I found that Kuroshitsuji base for my last layout and edited to make it Ash Crimson instead, and found this. Well, funny how I didn't notice it last, but the last time I was a bit crazy over Sebastian from Kuroshitsuji, so maybe that's why my eyes skipped right over it. I'm still trying to find a nice pic to edit so I can replace the one I have and tweak the layout to my liking again, but Photoshop crapped out on me, and I haven't found a nice pic I like yet.

In any case.......

I finally... finally.... FINALLY have Celestial Destroyer! :D Jooooooooyyyyyyy!!!!!! Ghost Trail, here I come! XD Although... I have to admit, quite a few people scared me when they said Ghost Trail chara is a bit hard to maintain since the player has to be quite careful with stats and skills to level, but I guess if you like it then just go for it. Better to stick with one decision than to go for another and end up with a character you'll end up hating in the end. I made two characters; HisuI (which I'm regretting the name. XD I feel like renaming her YingXia) which will be in the Ghost Trail clan as a Warlock, and ZhiNiang (my own name, I know), whom I'm going to put into the Sky Tone clan to be a Healer.

Lol, I read from somewhere that if in a party/family, when the tanker or Green Cloud or Ghost Lord player dies, all the blame will go to the Sky Tone chara. Eep! LOL!! XDDDDDD Scared la scared la... but who cares, rite? ^^; Hurry and log off only la. Get kicked out of family then join new one, hahaha!

Although the Healer's DEF quite low, ATK also quite low... *sighs* Haiiizzz... whatever. I still have HisuI to depend on if I get frustrated with ZhiNiang.

And to top everything off..... I made a new character. And I have a new email. So add me there, yo! And tell me who you are when you add me, or I'll delete you straight out after a week or two!

feng.ying_xia@yahoo.com

I drew HisuI just two days ago, but I haven't uploaded the pic to Deviantart yet. Might do it once I get off my lazy ass to scan it into the computer. But till then..... Emo Queen out. XDDDDD Zethan awaits me. ^^ *runs away to avoid Ash's Sans-Cullottes and green flames shooting at her*

Celestial Destroyer Ghost Trail chara. (What HisuI is going to look like and her power once I upgrade her. ^___^ )

This is Love... This is Love....

2009-09-22T20:14:00.002+08:00

Current Mood: Sick/Missing Him :(
Current Song: This Is Love (Utada Hikaru)

I'm sick. Nuff said. It's not Swine Flu, neither am I coughing or sniffling, it's just a pretty bad swelling of my tonsils, up to the point where it hurts even to swallow. But I made a trip to the doctor today, (after two days of living on nothing but soup) and he gave me some pills to help reduce the swelling and everything, so yeah. I can laugh and what not now... but I still can't strain my throat.

That means no heaty food for a long time. :(

And to add to the feeling of being absolutely horrible, Dante's down south (in Aus, duh) on a work trip, and he's not coming home till the 2nd of October. So just when I want to whine and virtually curl up next to him for some comfort, he's not there. I'm not complaining, though. He's reeling in the money, so I'm not going to gripe about him not being there when I can still walk and take care of myself. It's not like I'm bedridden or something, hell.. it's just my throat, not being able to eat and feeling like shit. I'm a big girl, so I'm just going to wait patiently till he comes home to me.

Did I mention we made up and we're back together again after breaking up in November last year? :3 God... I remember how depressed I was. I couldn't even STAND being in the car when love songs were being played on the radio. Any little teeny thing that reminded me of him (love songs included) always set off the waterworks, and I'd wait till bedtime before I'd cry into a pillow. So we tried to move on. But moving on didn't work for us... not until we moved on together. Just last month I couldn't stand listening to love songs, and now I can't stop humming love songs under my breath. =___=; I guess that's what love does to people. *sighs*

To make the boredom last a bit, Nero hasn't been on Yahoo at all, and I haven't seen Vergil for almost a month now. *drums fingers on the table* Perhaps I should just "die of boredom", but I'd be guilty when Dante comes home to find my body there. XDDDDDD In any case, I need a bit of fun. Or as much fun as a sick girl can get. I feel a bit better now from the meds, but hopefully I'll be fine by the end of the week.

2 Questions, though.....
1) Ghost Trail or Joyous Clan in Celestial Destroyer? >___< (Personally, the Ghost Trail clan has captivated me, but it's an End-Game (Warlock) type chara, meaning that the real damage and pain will be dealt only during the final leveling/high stages. Joyous is a One-Hit-Kill damage dealer (Assassin), but defense is weak, along with slow Leveling. I can't choose! D: )
2) Should I do a new layout? o.o I know, you're probably gonna groan, "Again??" but I'm finicky. I don't stay with one......

They Will See, We'll Fight Until Eternity...

2009-08-08T04:34:00.004+08:00

Current Mood: NERO!!!! >3
Current Song: Shall Never Surrender (Devil May Cry 4 OST, Jason "Shyboy" Arnold)

WARNING: Rated M for swearing. Lots of swearing. Do not let parents see.

~*~*~*~*~*~

And..... it has returned.

Yes, it has returned.

To think that after that drama incident on MySpace last year that left me a mess just because I got a bit too involved with a certain guy, I would have learned my lesson, but no.

Dante has returned to RP.

And with him, the Devil May Cry obsession has returned.

=/

So call me crazy, or anything, but yeah. I decided to screw it all to the winds and drag out Devil May Cry 4 again, though this time I played the PC version instead of the fucking Xbox 360 one. What can you do without a console, then? Why.... mash the keyboard, of course, while letting out string after string of curses at the demons you kill.

Which is what I exactly did.

I had no beef with the gameplay and everything, although I had to turn off the quality settings so the computer didn't crash and the game didn't lag. But then again, without the quality settings and all those fine-tuning they did to make the game look so uberly realistic, the game still looked pretty real to me. Dante looked hot (and pervertedly annoying), while Nero looked even hotter. The only problem I had with it was the slow runs, not the system, but the slow movements of the character. FGS, I thought it could go faster, but no.... Nero stuck only to one speed; slow. So the whole time I was playing, I was actually thinking, "Why is this thing so slow?" And I found out, it wasn't the system, it was just his speed.

Oh well. It wasn't so bad after all. For one, the graphics kept me entertained, and I had my attention mostly on the mini-map to see where I was going (I admit, I cheated by using a walkthrough) , and I was on the lookout for poor, innocent things to destroy to get some Red Orbs for myself (Now we all know why the amount of damage Dante does to the city equals to triple the pay he gets for eradicating the demons and saving the world. Oh well, looks like Nero has it in him too. Truly the destructive blood of Sparda). For me, I was pretty amused, especially when I first walked into the cathedral and powered up Nero's Devil Bringer, before destroying every single piece of furniture in the room to gain those precious Red Orbs I wanted to upgrade my weapons, life or character. Now, if only things like that could happen in Real Life... I could live with the awesome engined sword and the mass destruction I can cause.

Life isn't complete without destroying something for the fun of it, or just to let out some steam, eh?

So I was doing fine, having the time of my life beating Scarecrows into a bloody pulp, all until I came up to Berial's part. I got my ass served back to me on a golden platter twice, and I don't mean the time I was replaying King of Fighters 99 with K' Dash's team and got pwned by Krizalid almost thirty times until my thumb swelled. No, I found myself rolling, and ducking, and shooting and running, and trying to collect as much green orbs as I could before I got killed. And I did serve Berial quite a lot of damage with the 'Buster' technique from Nero's Devil Bringer and the slashes from 'Red Queen' (Nero, that sword is mine. I mean in. I WANT THAT FUCKING DAMN SWORD!), but the last minute, the fiery bastard just had to get up and pounce on me, killing me in the process just as I'm about to kill him.

Alright, you people out there reading this... yeah, you people that are already experts in DMC 4. Call me a noob, so what? I don't give a rat's ass. *waves Red Queen about and revs the handle*

I mean, c'mon. It was just a bit of stress relief, nothing much. >___>

Lol, but yeah. There was I, mashing the poor keyboard and spewing out strings of curses at those bastard scarecrows that love appearing to accost me out of nowhere, which was steadily getting louder and louder over the minutes. Happened like this.

Jade: *mashing the keyboard keys to create Smokin' Sick Stylish combos with the Devil Bringer, Red Queen and Blue Rose (Nero's trusty revolver which I don't use... much)* Damn you Scarecrows....... damn you damn you.... oh shit...... die!! I'm gonna kill you... die, just die.... *more appears* Oh fuck....
Everyone around her: o_____O'''''

Yes, that was me. Rather nice mouth I have there, don't I? It's all courtesy of Dante and too much DMC games. *shrugs* So what? I called someone a prick before and I wasn't supposed to say that. XD I don't give a damn... lalala... I don't give a friggin damn.....

And yeah.... my short letting-off-some-steam stint with DMC 4 PC has led me to a conclusion.

Nero.. is waaaayyyyyyyy hotter than Dante. WAY hotter. Yes, Dante, Nero's way hotter than you. Suck it up. =P

Nero vs Berial PC (DMC 4)

Wailing Your Sorrow Is Only My Way To Comfort You

2009-08-05T13:23:00.002+08:00

Current mood: ..... crappy.....
Current song: March of Mephisto (Kamelot)

So I've been in a very crappy mood lately. I don't know why. Perhaps I'm just pissed off at the world or something, but I'm not a very happy girl inside. Just need to get this out of my system for a bit... btw, does anyone recognize these sigils?

Yeah, they're demon sigils. I have the first hanging on my bag; the Behemoth. Maybe it's Satan's sigil, but I know he has another, that looks like a cup or goblet or something. The second belongs to Malphas, the last Phoenix, or Phenex. *sighs* Yes, I'm really not a happy girl to be sticking my head in Demonology now. ^^; In any case, I don't really mind. There's a theory that demons are the Gods of ancient times, and as far as I know, I've ALWAYS been interested in Egyptian Gods and all.

But that's absolutely private, so I'm shutting up right now.

Anyhoo, there's nothing much for me to write. Just wanted to vent something out and all. But I realized something. I swear almost occasionally and automatically when facing with a problem. XD Like yesterday, I was cooking Maggi Mee for lunch, the chicken flavored one, and my finger touched the hot pot slightly more than once. This was how it went:

Jade: *stirring the pot with chopsticks, a bit of her finger touches the tip of the hot metal* F@%K!
(next)
Jade: *washing the pot while it's still hot, her hand moves down a bit too close to the base of the handle, touches the hot part that hasn't been cooled with water yet* S^#T!
(next)
Jade: *carries the bowl back to the computer, finds that her pencilbox is taking up the space, doesn't know where to put the bowl down first* D@^N....

And yep. That's me. To tell the truth, I found it a bit hilarious, I don't know why. But while thinking about it again, I just couldn't help laughing. XD

And shit, my nose is hurting again... damn cold days..... >___>;

Daijoubu Itsumo... Chanto Waratteru Yo...

2009-07-09T15:52:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Sleepily Lazy. D:
Current song: Unmei no Hito (Fujita Maiko)

Ahhhhhhhhh... I may have lost my temper during my last post, and I know it's been ages since my last update... sorry guys, but I had an exam to take care of first. The hols are here, but I'm in my last week. T^T And I so don't like it cause I hate having to go to college. Yeah, I'm just lazy like that. So in any case, I apologize, first for my tardiness, and for losing my temper and if I offended anyone in my last post.

Oh btw, did I mention that I'm playing Hiiro no Kakera on my DS Emulator? XDDD

YES! You heard right! I managed to download the Hiiro no Kakera game to play! JOOOYYY!!! There isn't a day that passes where I don't play and squeal over the cuteness of Takuma-kun or Mahiro-senpai! And you know what??? I managed to find ALL the character's voice dialouges on Youtube! It was awesome! And I managed to get a clearer picture of Takuma, Tamaki and Mahiro while playing. Seriously, the whole thing is in kanji plus hiragana, but it's been a good way for me to actually upgrade my Japanese since most of the kanji occurs more than once, so I learn to regconize the words instead. I find myself speaking Japanese more fluetly now, though.. lol. Unfortunately, it also means that each time I see a Chinese word, the first thing that comes into my head is......... Japanese. O_____O; Yes..... now when I see a Chinese word, I read it out in Japanese instead of Chinese and that's a bit..... frustrating.

Lol, imagine seeing the words for, "Wo ai ni." and going, "Watashi ai anata."

.....

Yeah. Uh..... tea, anyone? XDDD *random sentence to change the topic*

Tsuguru: O-cha, Hisui-chan? *holds a tray of green tea*
Jade: Tsuguru-san!!!! *wails and hugs* UWAAHHHH!!!!!! ONEGAI SHIMASU!!
Tsuguru: Daijoubu, daijoubu. *smile* ^^; Now be a good girl and I'll pour you some tea...
Jade: *sniffles* Arigatou, Tsuguru-san....
Tsuguru: *cheerful smile* Doidashimashite.

On another note..... RUSTI IS IN MY HOUSE! =D

LOL, uh yeah.

Hehehe.. so.. haha.. yeah.

PS: Eating chocolate chip cookies at midnight is a sin. MmmmMMmmm... it's a sin..... >3

Days of Memories 2: ASH CRIMSON ROUTE

2009-06-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

Current mood: Headache-y
Current song: Splendid Evil (2003 Arranged)

Okay, I knew I was supposed to post this like two days ago, but I was a bit too busy dealing with something else on MySpace. Just cause I decided to join Ash's group, Iori wasn't too happy and now I've been labeled as 'traitor'. The only reason why I decided to join that group was because it's for LITERATE people! My alter accounts have rules on them that say I won't add one-liners and noobs, but I didn't put that on Jade. Maybe that's why I have lots of one-liners and noobs trying to add me. There's only so much illiteracy that I can take, and the Orochi Generation has a member that is a three-word, one-liner. That I WON'T associate with! At least Ash's group can give me the satisfaction of having literate RPers, not FRUSTRATE me by shoving NOOBS at ME!

So now I've been marked for death because I 'betrayed' Iori's group. Okay, fine! So what?? Kill me, I block you, simple as that. What's the whole purpose of killing someone, anyway? I should have borrowed a rule from Terry that says that if you're going to kill me, I'll delete AND block you!

You hear me, you noobs?! The only reason why I left the Orochi Generation to join the United Crimson Alliance Network was because U.C.A.N. is LITERATE!!! Not full of one-liners and noobs!! You wanna come kill me for no reason, fine! COme, then!! But what's the fucking point in RPing if you do so???

Ash: Oh mon dieu, mademoiselle... please do not swear. It is very unbecoming of a dear, fine lady like you.
Jade: ... Pardon me, Ash.... but this whole thing is just grating on my nerves. As if I don't have problems in RL I need to get problems in RP too.
Ash: Ah, Yagami is just jealous that you left him to join my mirror's group. Pay no attention to him. Your life is your own, non~?
Jade: ..... Perhaps you're right.... *grudgingly*
Ash: Ah, non, non... Ash is ALWAYS right, ahahaha~! >:3

*sighs* In any case, I really hate it when people go around killing on MySpace. Cause that defeats the whole purpose of RPing, and it messes up a lot of storylines too. The only exception is that if the person is RPing a murderer lke Leo, and we have a specific storyline that won't mess up any other storylines, then it's fine. Besides, Leo's a good friend.

So here, then. This is the route for Ash Crimson in the NDS game Days of Memories 2. ^___^ Enjoy~!

I tried Iori out first, and got heartbroken in the end. Then I didn't get an ending with Alba and Kyo. However... strangely, I got through for Ash. >___< LOL! I mean.... wow. Okay, I must really, REALLY like Ash. XD

8th Day: Ash throws riches in your face... and best friend Kaori starts to openly dislike him for that. Note the Oswald butler in the background. XDD (Thanks for noticing, Haken! ^__^ )

12th Day: You're walking down the street when who do you bump into?? Ash and his groupies, Duo Lon and Shen Woo!! XDD

24th Day: It's your birthday and you're finally 17... the same age that Ash is! So what does he do? He gives you a free manicure as your birthday present! :)

29th Day: After you both confess your love a few days back, best friend Kaori decides she doesn't like the idea of you and Ash being together, so she persuades him to dump you. In the meantime, you find out and have a little tiff with him before leaving him in tears, with a sore cheek after a slap. However... this is only the beginning to a serious fight.

ED: You turn up just in time to help Ash in his fight, declaring about the power of love and all that jazz after hearing a really sad story about his past and after he tells you he's going to England or something. Story cut short, the power of love saves you both, and the two of you are finally living the happily ever after...... that is, until Ash decides that he's going to give you a makeover. XDDDDD

LOL! THAT'S IT! The next route I'll post will be Terry Bogard's, around tomorrow! ^___^

King Of The Bongo, King Of The Bongo-Bong

2009-06-03T19:13:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Happy
Current song: Splendid Evil (Ash Crimson/Heroes Team theme)

Jade: Testing... testing... the color looks good.
Ash: *comes in with a plate of Sachertorte and eats it in front of her*
Jade: Oh ugh, Ash! For God's sake, get out of the way! *makes a face* My blog is finally up and working again after that long construction......
Ash: Only because you were too lazy to edit the template. And you know you love this, hmmm~? *deliberately takes a slow bite of it, the tip of his tongue licking the fork*
Jade: o____o'''''' No!! I don't like chocolate cake! Even if it is Sachertorte!!!!! >A< *looks away* Ash: ..... You know I wasn't talking about the cake... it's mine anyway. Jade: >////////> *ignores Ash and starts to update her blog*

Konichiwa. Jade-chan is finally back with a new layout to update her blog. Sorry it took so long, but I got lazy.... as usual. Just that the lazy bone decided to act up, soooo... yeah. In any case, not much has been going on in my life, except that Haken... with his whole K' Dash thing going on, got me interested in King of Fighters again. And then again, I have Terry as a friend, and Terry Bogard is... Terry Bogard. Of the Fatal Fury team. XDD He's a seriously good friend, and an awesome RPer, but that has led me to go about the KoF craze. So what did I do? I tried out the newest games, read up on all that I've missed and bam! I'm back in the KoF universe again! So my latest obsession has been Ash Crimson...... *points at the fancy undefined something eating cake by the window* (Ash: *waves* Plaisir de vous rencontrer.) ...... and it's his fault that I've suddenly got a big interest in French. Uggghhhh......

In any case! I've managed to download an NDS emulator, just to play Days of Memories 2 on it and so far, I've completed Ash Crimson (mischievous classmate) and Terry Bogard's (hot gym teacher) route. ^___^~ Ash was my very first without any problems at all, and I was SO happy I got a happy ending there! Also, I gots a new manicure!!! It's black with white nail art, like Ash's! =D

Ash: You big copycat...... *admires his own nails* At least mine is better than yours, non? And unique too.....
Jade: Mine is nicer! It has white butterfly nail art on it that reminds you of Luise Meyrink and the Maximum Impact: 2 logo!
Ash: Aaahh.. the butterfly woman. Still... mine has ten different art... and they're certainly more unique than yours.
Jade: .....

Continuing on, I'll post Ash's route tomorrow (as a punishment for dissing my nail art. *glares*) and Terry's the day after, cause I just downloaded Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D Stardust Accelerator and I want to try it out. Hopefuly it isn't like Endless Frontier (that crashes each time I get halfway through the game. NooO!!!!! HAKEN!!!!!! D: ) and Pokemon Pearl (That doesn't save at all. >__<) Damn.... I honestly need to get an NDS to play Endless Frontier. I just got through to the part where they met Kaguya Nanbu and went off to a town, and I can't stop LOLing! It's hilarious! XDDD

Also......

King of Fighters XII is out! =D

SNK didn't continue Ash's story... *sighs* So I have to wait till next year. However... at LEAST Ash is in this game too! ^___^ His 'Ventose' and 'Sans-Cullottes' look totally AWESOME! XD Ooh, Iori's awesome too, his moves are basically all the same except that it's this ripping with his fingers since he doesn't have his flames anymore thanks to a certain someone........ *glares at Ash*

Ash: *examines his nails, but makes those violet flames appear in his hand as a warning*

And Duo Lon plus Shen Woo's in there too! Yay! The entire 2003 Heroes team is in! I can't believe Duo Lon left to join Elisabeth and Benimaru, so Oswald had to fill in for him, ugh... =___= It just wasn't the same without him. In any case.... I'm happy Ash has the largest picture there... check it out, his butt is sooooo sexy. Oh yeah, I'd drink to that. *giggles*

Ash: ............
Jade: *is staring at his butt and drooling*
Ash: Excusez-moi, but could you please stop staring at my ass, mademoiselle? It's creeping me out.
Jade: Oh, but Ash! You have to admit, you have a perfect figure to die for, and when you're warming up to fight in Regulation A, the way you move that sexy ass of yours back and forth.... *___* it's just so irresistable!!!!
Ash: Hmmmm....? Sore KISSU deshou~? ^.~ *wiggles his butt and blows a flying kiss while posing*
Jade: o/////o *nosebleed*

Natalie Was Here! WOO!

2009-06-03T15:20:00.001+08:00

WHEEEEE! This post is officially known as, "If Natalie wasn't here, the blog would be SOOOOO much better!". Well, DEAL WITH IT.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLOG UNDER CO.

2009-05-06T20:04:00.002+08:00

Yes, you heard right.

BLOG UNDER CO. PLEASE BE PATIENT UNTIL IT'S COMPLETED.

Yes Yes Promise You

2009-04-18T16:49:00.003+08:00

Current Mood: Crazy
Current Song: KD-0079, King of Fighters: Maximum Impact 2 (K theme)

Like omg, I finally found the song that I wanted!!! After two whole months of being frustrated and all that jazz... I have FINALLY... found my song. The poor Hiiro no Kakera vid that was deleted from my blog after Saikara's account got suspended. It's...

"Promise You" by Boystyle.

Hahhhhh.... I feel so satisfied. Now, my only problem is finding the song Tina or whatever her name is did for her Mahiro Tribute vid. I love song.. it's so catchy, and it makes you happy just by listening to it. XD I mean, when I was trying.. or attempting to sketch Mahiro-senpai's face, I was listening to that song for the whole night! But the problem is... ummm... well, she didn't put the singer or the title of the song.. so I don't know who sang it. Oi veigh......

This is going to be trickier than I thought. >___>

Anyway, though I'm a bit more crazy over K's theme from KoF: 99 and MI2, I'm going through random songs from my thumbdrive playlist. One, because I can't find the Mp3 anywhere; Two, because it's taking forever to load and I'm driving myself crazy trying to get it. Aggggghhhhhh!!!! I think it's better if I just download it from Youtube, but the connection is so absurdly SLOW!!!

The plus side is.... my computer got fixed, so I have a different Hiiro no Kakera wallpaper on right now. ^^

The bad thing? Well, let's just say I can't install Photoshop anymore cause according to Mr Computer Man, Photoshop slows the computer down. I'm like, "WTF?!" So I can't edit pictures no longer, and it's a bit irritating cause there's tons of pictures that I want to edit..... especially for Lilith, myself, Terry, K and a few other friends. Oh God, this is irritating!! I think I just wanna emo in a corner.... >___>

On another hand, I've been thinking about K quite often now. He's...... absurdly adorable. XD Looks a lot like Haken, doesn't he? Except that he has a horrible temper and is dark-skinned. (of course, this I have to thank Haken... he totally manipulated my mind! >___< Gahhh!!! Haken!!! Whyyyyyy?) I'm jealous of Kula. Quite jealous, really. She's the only one that K won't mind. I mean, she shoved a lollipop in his face while his temper was at boiling point (literally since their vehicle broke down in the middle of the desert and he was sweating just trying to fix the engine), and all he did was walk away! O___o He didn't even kill her! I bet, if I was the one that had shoved the lollipop in his face, I'd have died already, geez.....

Anyway, here's the song that I'm so seriously addicted to right now... (I feel like pulling out my King of Fighters game again... just for the fun of it. ^__^;;;) Sorry, Terry!!! You're a great friend of mine, but honestly, K's theme totally tops yours! ^^; I guess we both differ, ne? *bows*

What hurts the most...

2009-04-08T23:17:00.004+08:00

Current mood: Pissy
Current song: What Hurts The Most (Rascal Flatts)

Nyaaaa.... nothing much to write... I'm feeling extremely lazy and sleepy for some reason. Okay, maybe that Microsoft has managed to find out that my Windows isn't a valid copy and so has done something to turn my entire desktop black, taking out my favorite Hiiro no Kakera wallpaper that I have right now. >.<

The one of Mahiro and Takuma extending their hands towards the player aka Tamaki.

No wait... actually, I'd changed the wallpaper to Oomi taking Tamaki's hand. >.> But nevermind. The point is, I had THIS on my desktop:

And now I don't! It was SO frustrating! All I have now is a blank screen to stare at, arrggghhh!! A blank BLACK screen! Dammit! So what do I do? Nothing. I can't do anything about it. Except gripe and whine and complain to anyone who would hear, and try to get it out of the computer, which btw... won't work because according to someone, Microsoft has tagged you. Oh really? OMG, than at least give me back my desktop wallpaper so I have something nice to stare at!! And don't take it off every half hour or so! It's irritating!!! >.<

In any case... I downloaded Rascal Flatt's 'What Hurts The Most' because each time I hear the song, I can't stop thinking about Ryou-senpai. *Sighs* Like omg.... what have I done? I keep thinking of Ryou too much nowadays... and just last week it was mostly Takuma and Oomi I was crazy over. Hmm... I have to admit, though. Ryou-sama is HAWT! Ahem.. but then again, all the guys are.

Like Youichi-senpai is... that gentle type? You know... the kind of... quiet guy that keeps to himself, but once he's fallen in love with you, he'll protect you with every fiber of his being. Youichi-senpai... *drools* Namikawa Daisuke-sama.... ULQUIORRA-KUN!!

OH GOD, ICHIGO!! IF YOU'VE KILLED ULQUIORRA, I WON'T FORGIVE YOU!!! EVER!!!

Anyway, I'm halfway enjoying myself listening to Kokia's voice as she sings 'Chowa Oto with Reflection' aka, the current song playing on my blog for this month. Ooh, I found a vid of her doing this song acappella, and it's awesome! :D So enjoy... while I emo about Ulqui-kun's fate, and drool over Youichi-senpai, Takuma-kun, Tsuguru-san and Ryou-sama.

Sukoshi Atatakai Kaze Hoho Wo Kasumeteku

2009-04-03T16:22:00.004+08:00

Ahhhhhhh...... Bleach is out!! And Ichigo killed Ulquiorra! Okay, so maybe he isn't dead yet, we'll see what happens in the next chapter. But IF he KILLS Ulqui-kun, I'LL KILL HIM LIKE I'LL KILL SASUKE!!!!! >.< >___<

Nigel, you can have Pain for what he did to Kakashi and Konoha. I'm having Sasuke for what he did to Deidara-senpai and Itachi, and then the two of us will kill him for betraying Konoha too! Ichigo however, will be killed by me!

Huhhhh.... back on another normal note, I did support Earth Hour last week. It was kinda fun, hehehe... my neighbor was all "Don't forget to turn off your lights!" and I said, "Yeah!!!!!!" So we had a countdown, lol... and off went the lights for one hour. Hahh.. it felt so good to at least show that Malaysians are united and do something for Mother Nature. I love the earth.. but some research on Sunday scared me. See, the sun is a star, right? And eventually stars die by growing bigger and getting a lot of gas before exploding in a supernova. (oAo) Well.. the good thing is... we'd all be dead by then, or the Earth will die first from extreme heat, then the outer core will melt away and only leave a smaller shell of what we are... o___o Okay, I'm getting ahead of myself first. >.> In any case, our SUN is going to EXPLODE in a billion years to come and we'll all be reincarnated as aliens. XDDD

Random much? I believe in the ET..... bwahahaha........

So anyway, that post up there led to a lot of discussion as Chee Man drove me and Singam to Subang in his car, and it randomed out to.... aliens and fighting aliens with Mat Rempits and all, wrestling them to death.. and Predator is hot. Yes, I said Predator is hot. So what? >___< style="font-style: italic;">

(flipping though HnK vids on Youtube)

Me: Hmm... never seen this before..... the song's quite nice...

(watching and listening. After 1 minute or so, comes across a pic of Takuma laughing with Tamaki)

Me: OMG!!!!!!!! O_____O HE'S SMILING!!! I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT BEFORE!!!!!!!! (*A*) *screams* KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

(time stops, heart stops, all that's in the world is Takuma smiling and laughing)

Uh yeah. that's basically how it went. I almost, ALMOST died out of sheer pleasure at seeing him smile. I think.. I'll be half-dead for the rest of the day, wandering like a zombie thinking of dear, dear Takuma-kun and his GORGEOUS smile..... *is so in love with Takuma* Gomen, gomen Mahiro-senpai! Takuma has won for today! ^____^

AARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAKUMA-KUN!!!! DAISUKI DESU~~~!!!!

Kono hito, atashi wa suki da yo ka?

2009-03-26T22:26:00.005+08:00

Current mood: Sick
Current song: Unmei no Hito (Fujita Maiko)

Agggh.... Somehow I really can't find the Hiiro no Kakera manga anywhere on the net and it's driving me nuts! Well, Fransyung has translated the first three chapters of Mezame no Toki, but I can't find Ni no Shou anywhere to download. Not even the RAWs. T^T This is getting so irritating... huuuu.. well, irritating isn't exactly the word. Crazy is more like it. I feel depressed.... Like omg, I just spent the whole day today watching HnK clips on YouTube and listening to Takuma's voice (*cough*Kyon*cough) as he speaks.. but I WANT the manga!! D: I want the manga!! DX

And LIKE OMG, I SAW SHORT CLIPS OF THE HIIRO NO KAKERA MUSICAL!!! Uh.. well, maybe I did go a bit crazy at Takuma's VOICE, but I think the characters got killed... a little. But the part where Youichi feeds both Mahiro and Takuma, then falls asleep while they complain... is HILARIOUS! XD He digs into a paper bag and tosses two buns out onto the floor, and as usual... falls asleep on his feet. The actress acting as Tamaki was like, "WHAT?!" XDDD Then... Mahiro's character is a bit, umm.. too tall. He should be a bit shorter. And I like the part where he jumps down from the wall and startles Tamaki and she's all like, "Who the heck are you?" And self-centered Mahiro-senpai-sama goes, "Who, me?" in a 'I'm-the-king-of-the-world-so-you-should-know-me' tone.

However... they killed the fighting scenes. D:

Anyway, I've so totally ran out of ideas for fanfics, but certain scenes keep playing in my head. It really doesn't help that I'm sick and down with flu and the cough... and all I can think about is, "I want Oomi-san to take care of me... *moans* D: ..." Talking about that, I haven't translated his song yet. >.> I'd better get to work.... Somehow, I don't understand how I could have just relinquished Oomi to Nicole just like that. I could have given her Ryou-senpai instead, but nooo.. I had to open my big mouth and say "Yes, you can have Oomi!" And then I sacrificed Youichi to her just to save my Mahiro from being taken, lol.

Also, of all stupid things to happen, Saikara's account in Youtube got suspended, and therefore my fav song that's been on the blog for almost a month now has been deleted. So I'm changing the song to either [Tadaima] or [Chowa Oto with Reflection]. It'll be there at the end of the month when I finally make my mind up. Huhhh... luckily, I downloaded the video from Youtube to save in my Phone, so i have the flv right now. Adding to that, I also downloaded Takuma and Mahiro's drama cd from her profile a month back, so all is not lost! XD I just feel a bit sad that I can't get Ryou/Youichi and Tsuguru/Shinji. However.. I managed to find the drama cds for Hisui no Shizuku, thanks to somebody on Youtube, and I've listened to all of them. My favorite is still [Taiyaki no Haji]. Omg, it was HILARIOUS! Katsuhiko insulted taiyaki.. and Takuma defended his favorite snack with his LIFE!!! I tried to translate by listening, aaaannndddd.... well, it's not accurate, but you get the gist.

(Starting at the middle when Hiko meets Takuma on the school roof)

Takuma: *eats Taiyaki*
Hiko: Eh? What's that you're eating?
Takuma: Huh? This is Taiyaki.

Hiko: Taiyaki?
Takuma: Haven't you bought Taiyaki during recess? It's okay, I can share...
Hiko: Oi, bro... have you seen this weird thing called Taiyaki before?
Taro: Iya... I haven't heard of anything like it... I don't know what it is...
Takuma: Nahh.. Don't tell me, you want my Taiyaki? You can't get it if you don't work for it.

Hiko: As if I want it... >.>

(then comes something I can't translate by hearing.. XD But there was something like this: )

Hiko: ... but I don't know what's wrong with your head.
*sarcastic teasing*
Takuma: *gets pissed* There's nothing wrong with my head. This is the first time you've seen it, but it's the best snack in the world! (Bla bla bla...)
Hiko: *tease tease tease* what that you're talking about again? Kaitenyaki? Takoyaki? *deliberate insult*
Takuma: *pissed, starts to quarrel with Hiko.... over Taiyaki, shouting all the way*

(XDDDDDDD )

Hiko: This guy... I can't believe he's kicking up a fuss over Taiyaki....
Taro: Maybe it's because of Trauma...

(And then again...)

Takuma: Why did you call my Taiyaki dumb?! >____<####

(Then Takuma says sorry for losing his temper, and they start talking about the Tamayorhime, the bell rings and recess is over, lol. And then... he gives the rest of the Taiyaki to Hiko.
XDDDD )

Takuma: Work hard! *bites the Taiyaki and goes into the school*
Hiko: Why did he give the Taiyaki to me...? o.O
(some sentences I don't understand.. and then the best:)

Hiko: Taiyaki otoko. (TAIYAKI KID. XDDD) Do I even want to eat this.. taiyaki...?? o__o

Like omg, I could not stop laughing my brains out! It was just too funny!! XD

Support Earth Hour tonight, people!! If you love Mother Earth, turn off your lights for one hour, 8:30pm to 9:30pm.

We love the earth we live in, don't we? So support Earth hour and show the world that we can make a difference.

Naranda ringo ame anata to, aruku michi...

2009-03-18T15:49:00.002+08:00

Current mood: Pissy
Current song: Mizufuusen (Fujita Maiko)

For one thing. I'm a pissy little girl right now cause dad's home and I can't get to use the computer when he's home. I've been meaning to update my blog, but of course, I can't when there's someone else using the computer, and this only make me even more depressed/pissy and determined to get a laptop more than ever. Ugh.. I hate it because my purse seems to be empty for the moment, and I can only get on mobile to RP and use MSN, and Opera Mini eats up my credit fast! >.< It's irritating! Very irritating! And I want to translate Tsuguru Oomi-san's song, [Gentle Moonlight], but I can't, because I can't use the computer, and when I can't use the computer, I can't download and save the song into my USB, then convert it and save it on my phone! Arrggghhh!!

I'm ranting, aren't I? I know I'm ranting. I always rant when I'm nervous or seriously pissed off. >.>

Recent happenings, I did something quite stupid day before yesterday. I took my bags and all and went out for lunch with Jason, Chee Man, Adrian and Shee May to a Wan Tan Mee stall next to the Petaling Street Food Court. I was sitting next to Chee Man, so I put my file down on the chair in between us, then his bag on top of it, and then my bag on top of his. Everything was going fine and we were having fun chatting and all, until it was time to leave since we got tired of sitting there.

I got up, took my bag and walked away.

Few minutes later, in front of college...

Me: OMG, I left my file back there! O___O'''
Chee Man: Nvm la, later can go get, what....
Me: But my notes all in there!! Well... Timothy is having the majority of my notes, and it's only the seminar packs or something....

And he didn't realize I meant I left my file in the Wan Tan Mee stall until we were talking to Singam in the computer lab.

Me: Singam.. I left my file at lunch la...
Singam: Huh?! o__o;
Chee Man: Aiya, I told you can get it later after class ma...
Me: No, I left it just now at the place where we're eating lunch!!
Chee Man: You mean you left it at the Wan Tan Mee place izzit? o.O I thought you meant class!
Me: No la!!! That's what I've been trying to tell you!! Shit, man...

And so, me being the 'pai seh' type... didn't go back to get it. Instead... (since all my notes with Timothy, I just need to copy that day's notes from someone else...) I went and bought a new Writing Pad and file. Rest of the college notes? Sitting at home, so find the ones that I don't have and get someone to photocopy theirs for me. Geez.. simple, right? But still a lot of trouble le... so embarrassing, man.. This isn't the first time. The first time was last year, I left it in the bakery after buying a sandwich at the LRT station. But luckily Eu Chiern took the same LRT with me last time, so the next day, I texted him and told him to pick it up for me. Which he did, thank God.

This time? No such lifeline. Gotta go do everything again, huhuhu.. thank God I don't have to re-copy all the notes again. ^_^;

Silent Wish

2009-03-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

Current mood: Lazy
Current song: Silent Wish... duh!

At last... I have finished translating Komura Youichi's Silent Wish. :D Ahh... this song is just so... so.. relaxing. Honestly, translating the song was like translating a love letter. It was the typical Romeo love song thingy, all romantic and soft, so although I was mourning the loss of my phone (which btw.. the fixing cost only costs Rm70+ and I'll be getting it back sooner than expected, I guess), finding out the meaning of the song got me smiling and sighing again. Though.... I was screaming out, "ULQUIORRA-SAN!!!!" the whole way.

Yes. Ulquiorra. Ulquiorra Schiffer, Cuarto Espada.

And why? Those hardcore Bleach fans will soon recognise Youichi-senpai's voice as Ulquiorra's voice. That's right, people! Namikawa Daisuke-sama voiced Komura Youichi, the fox from Hiiro no Kakera!!!! =D I was SO happy when I heard it! For a bit, I was really wondering why he sounded so familliar, until I listened to all my Bleach Beat Collection cds that I have, and I was like, "OMG!!! THAT'S ULQUIORRA!!!" Namikawa-sama's voice role for the Cuarto Espada was something like... smooth, yet proud. Youichi is more on the warm side, although I don't know why Namikawa-sama voices people who are mostly on the quiet side. Anyway, his voice is just so smooth and gentle, perfect for this Fox character. I was instantly drawn in by his lyrics, and I admit.. I felt like totally falling in love with him at that point. His song and Namikawa-sama's smooth voice and the soft melody (though he gets a guitar bridge) calmed me down so much, I could've just fallen asleep to it. ^___^

Komura Youichi is the third person you'll meet in the game (yes, I admit... I'm going by the game sequence), and in the library, because he's a bookworm. He can cook, for one thing, and his favorite food is sushi (lol, don't ask.. his drama cd came with his favorite food.. he says he likes Inari Sushi or something). The best thing, though..... is that he has the special ability to fall asleep on his feet, or anywhere at all. XDDD That was seriously wierd, but it adds comic relief to what would otherwise be a boring person, since Youichi-senpai himself admits that he doesn't know nuts about sociallizing with people when Tamaki tried to make a conversation with him. There was a part though.. where Tamaki was going on and on about her life, and Senpai fell asleep in the middle of her ranting. Tamaki-chan got a bit upset, and she had a sharpie nearby.... so you can guess the rest. XD Though I think our dear Senpai would have just walked out of there with squiggles all over his face and not realise it. XD

On another note, Mahiro recieved the same fate too. XDDDDD Poor guys... the senpais (except Ryou, I think) all got the Sharpie treatment from Tamaki-chan.

Youichi's power is... Kitsune powers. XD He can create illusions and control fox fire which by the way, is blue in color. And he has the furriest transformation ever, fox ears and four, fluffy fox tails which I'd LOVE to hug or pull. =D Go senpai!!! I love senpai!!!

Silent Wish
Komura Youichi

Katara sumu madome de
Omae no kehai wakaru
Tasogame doki seinjaku wo
Futari de wa ke wa mou

Uno kirasu unmei wo
Ima wa wasuretai yo
Soshidaru fubi de mitsumeru yokogao
Maboroshi

Nanoka kokoro no naka ni
Hikari ga hitotsuji
Sasun chi chirimi kawaru omoi
Taite shizuka ni hohoeru dake

Shigara ata deai nara
Suba wo ni kimochi tsugeru
Kizutsukeru no na kowakutte
Mai otto wo zaketetta

Jibun mo kumo suzuke yo wo
Wazato kyori wo kokoro
Sei jitsu sawaii tsudemo setsubo wo
Chirizoke

Nuhatsu ma nazashi azuku
Omae wo mamotte
Iru na kitai toki wa soba de
Kata wo tsuyoku dakishimeru kara

Kokoro no naka ni
Hikari ga hitotsuji
Sasun chi chirimi kawaru omoi
Taite shizuka ni hohonde miru

Dake ma yasashi atsuku
Omae wo mamotte
Iru na kitai toki wa soba de
Kata wo tsuyoku dakishimeru kara

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Silent Wish
Komura Youichi

This talk by the window becomes clear
I understand your sign
Some things will have to be put aside
Because there is already a meaning of two people

Now fortune shines on my fate
Let's leave 'now' behind
Gazing at your unexpected profile
It is an illusion

Seven days inside my heart
There's a single ray of light
Show me the position where my feelings have been replaced
With only a soft smile between us

If we come across each other in this town
Inform me of this feeling when I'm next to you
These dreadful injuries don't hurt
Everything is silent

As it goes on, it's only myself and the clouds
My heart is deliberately distant
But each time you ask, I'll always give you an honest answer
I'm sure a sign will fall

When that time does arrive
I will protect you
I hope that when I'm beside you
I can hold you close, so you can lean on my shoulder

Seven days inside my heart
There's a single ray of light
Show me the position where my feelings have been replaced
By looking at the soft smile between us

Only when that tender time comes
I will protect you
I hope that when I'm beside you
I can hold you close, so you can lean my shoulder.

Wasurenai yo, kimi ni wa ataki...

2009-03-12T14:18:00.002+08:00

Current mood: Bored
Current song: Promise You

I meant to write this in yesterday, but I came home with a headache, so I couldn't think at all. Ugh.. and I haven't finished translating Youichi-senpai's song.. I'll try to finish it before tomorrow so I can input it into the blog, but yeah. So it seems that my phone has checked into the "hospital", and I won't get it back for a week. D: No!!! I can't survive... well, I'm barely surviving now as it is. I'm just counting down the days to when I'll get my phone back. So in the meantime, I'll probably use my mom's phone since I have my SIM card with me. Or, I'll just go get some "apek" phone from one of the shops and use it. >___> Well, I can't survive without my songs, so I'll bide my time. However, it does mean that by the time I get that "apek" phone, I'll get my original phone back, so what the heck. XDD I'll probably have two phones, and two SIM cards. Talking about that, Maxis was supposed to change my phone from Prepaid to Postpaid and it's still not changed until now. The guy was like, "Wait for a year and then you'll get a text saying that you can change SIM cards now." I haven't gotten that text message yet.

Anyway, yesterday was a pretty eventful day, what with a headache starting the middle of class, a failed attempt at trying to sell a car... -__-'''' That was totally my fault.. I have no idea how to do business with people XD, and then it rained so as usual... the train broke down. I was screaming, "SHIT!!!" for the whole evening with Singam... who once again, got caught with me. Every year, the train just has to break down at least once and leave us stranded in a station. How cool is that? *sarcastic tone* But like omg, at least the same scene didn't happen last year...

(Train breaks down in Petaling station)
Me: Dammit... I'll be late for dinner.. *whines and roams through the crowd, listening to Houkiboushi by Yui on the Mp3*
Singam: *spots her* Eh... isn't that.. *waves*
Me: *notices and blinks* Omg, why is he looking at me? *walks away*
Singam: *follows*
Me: o.o Uh... who are you? Why are you following me?
Singam: O____O;;;; I'm your friend la! From college!
Me: Really?? o.O
Singam. O_________O;;;;;
(People looking)

Ahahah... yes.. that was last year. Omg, it was so embarassing. I couldn't even recofnise my own friend. XD This year was a little different....

(Train breaks down in Pantai Dalam station)
Me: *looking out at the distant tracks* Are you sure the train will be coming this way.. or the next platform?
Singam: We can see right? If it's the other platform, we jump down on the tracks and run to the other side then climb up.
Me: Suicidal. XDDD *gets ready to jump*
Singam: You can run or not?
Me: I'll follow you from behind.
Singam: Sure?
Me: Yes la!
(Jumps onto the track with people screaming. XD)

Nononono... we didn't jump. XDDD We WANTED to do the whole "I'm comitting suicide by jumping in front of a train thing, but it didn't happen. In the end, we walked like civillized people using the crossing bridge, lol. Anyway, something really stupid happened in class today. Due to Ms Suganthi being busy with Revision Classes, Mr Reuben had to take over. We got about 15 minutes of Common Law and Reasoning before the next hour and half was filled with promotion about our college. XD Ah... and that was when the "Excuse me guy" decided to put up his hand to ask another totally ridiculous question. Mr Reuben was telling us that we could bring tape recorders or devices that allow us to record what the lecturer says in case we get sleepy or we fall asleep, or our mind drifts off to 'la-la' land. And then...

Adrian: Excuse me.
Everyone: *Snigger snigger*
Me: o_O
Mr Reuben: Yes?
Adrian: So that means we can bring tape recorders? You won't sue me for breach of intellectual property?
Me: XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Everyone: *howling with laughter*

OMG!! I couldn't stop laughing!!!!! First thing.. WTH is 'BREACH OF INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY'???!!!! Another thing, what is 'INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY'??? Terrible la.... I was just sitting there with my hands over my head and crouching to hide myself beside Chee Man, trying hard not to laugh out loud. But I couldn't help it!!! Omg, that really made my rainy day better...

Though the train breaking down spoiled the whole thing. And then while we waited, I could smell Nasi Lemak being sold in the stalls along the road... *drools* D: We managed to get into the train, however... Unfortunately, instead of sending an empty train, they sent a tuna packed train. I was so tired and pissy, I didn't care but just played American football and pushed my way into it. The bad thing was, everyone had the same idea as me, so the train went from being tuna packed to sardin packed. Ugh... on the flipside... I didn't have to hold on to anything. ;D Oh, and someone's figures came today.... Meep... I'm jealous... I want to have Takuma in my room too!!! Though my teddy bear's sitting on my bed just fine. I mean, I want a Takuma figurine on my table.. and the others to get my dear cousin jealous. Nicole did tell me she wants Oomi, Shinji and Youichi... (it was a big fight, but she won those three in the end because it was her birthday. >.> Or I would have said, "OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!") Nah.. I'm not that evil. I just want to collect the figures since I'm on an obsessive roll now, lol. I won't give Nicole those three figures if I get them, but I won't make her jealous.. I love her too much to do so. XD However, we'll still fight over who gets who in Supernatural. XDDD Though she's already into Sammy and I'm claiming Deanie. =D

Also, I think Mibu Kotaro is HOT! >.< For some reason... he reminds me of Mahiro, but uh... well, he just seems hotter... I said the same thing about Shigemori Akira, didn't I? Jeez.... I changed my mind. There's three that I like now, actually: Kotaro, Akira and Kei. But I prefer Kotaro, so I'm sticking with him. XD And for that fact.... O-chan is a girl. She's a girl. I'm sure of it. Unless someone can prove me wrong. Besides, Youichi-senpai called her his half-imouto and 'imouto' means 'little sister'. So there.

>_>;
<_<;
>____<

SHE'S A GIRL!!! I'M SURE OF IT!!! O-CHAN'S A GIRL!!!!! RRRRAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Becomes the Wind

2009-03-09T16:37:00.003+08:00

Okay, in all the random news.... I blew my cellphone. D: It happened yesterday after I was downloading the HnK character songs from nicomimi, and I was so idiotic as to actually transfer it to my phone, thus completely corrupting and blowing it out. I think I'm going to have to re-format the whole thing now, joy..... T____T The problem was, it couldn't play on Wimamp, only WMP, and I thought, "Wth, it's playing on WMP, maybe the phone can play it too". And see what happens then? I can't turn on my phone, because the whole thing goes crazy, and when I do, I can't turn it off again unless I remove the battery. Urgh... I'm phoneless for a day. (Though I did console myself by having Youichi-senpai console me while I Emo-ed in a corner. XD) Lesson learned: Don't try loading music files onto the phone if it can't play on Wimamp. -___-;

On another note, I translated Mahiro-senpai's song! =D (Arrrrr!!!!! I LOVE Mahiro-senpai!!!!! >/////< So immature and short, but he has muscles, squeeeeee!) He really made my day while I emo-ed sadly, mourning the loss of my dear, dear phone. Compared to Takuma-kun, Mahiro's song is really upbeat and cheerful, with Woodwind instruments (and a guitar background, lol! ^__^). Mahiro is just SO SO SO cheerful! The song is quite the nonsesical type, with seriously weird, but cute lyrics... just like this jailbreak brat. XD (No offence, senpai). It got me smiling and singing alone while I listened to it, but it still doesn't change the fact that I want to STRANGLE him for making my life even more difficult than it is and cutting off three to four hours of my sleep with his strange and non-understandable diction. That's the only part I hate about Mahiro; the way he speaks. Though I think the self-centered "Ore-sama/Atori Mahiro-senpai-sama" part makes him absolutely irresistable and irritating at the same time. XDDD Mahiro's the Descendant of the Raven, and can manipulate wind. The most charming thing about him however, is the fact that he has two giant wings and he can somewhat fly with them. XD

But if you play the game, you'll find Mahiro (second character you'll bump into after Takuma) to be somewhat immature and playful, and he's always smiling or grinning or smirking, not exactly taking things seriously. I actually think that his hobby is causing trouble and picking on Takuma, or zooming around the place on his wings or not. But there's also a serious part to Mahiro-senpai, and he can get really serious and thoughtful if he wants to. Like when it comes to Tamaki... there's a picture somewhere of him hugging her with a very serious look on his face, a combination of pissed and relieved, actually. He has a height complex too.. like me! =D Ahhh, out dear senpai's short... about Shinji-kun's height, really.. XD And he's so CUTE when he blushes! Hehehe... also, Mahiro-senpai hosts the Trivia in the PSP game (as I've seen in the Hiiro no Kakera PSP trailer), and he's just SO cute when he makes that buzzer noise each time you give the wrong answer (makes me want to get the answers wrong each time. XD). His voice reminds me of a raven, though.. it has that kind of 'cawing' tone to it. Of course... he just LOVES to shout, and I've heard him shouting a miliion times in his drama cd where he records a message for Tamaki-chan on a tape recorder.. it's screechy and cawing... and makes me laugh. I think if he stood on the roof and lets out his screeching shout, the people below would hear it loud and clear. XD That's why I follow his "Arrrrrrrr!" kind of shout. XDDDDD

Arrrrrrrr!!!!!! MAHIRO-SENPAI GA SUKI!!!! Let's become the wind!!!

Becomes The Wind
Atori Mahiro

Omae no kaze ni naritai

Iwana kutemo ii wakarete iru no saa
Omae no omoiro dake
Jyuusuu minabun dake kawaii hito wo mou
Soba ni ite mo ii tada

Shibara deru no wa inai dashou donna kedo shita kara
Uketome te yarunda
Tainga kino aru otoko omae no nakase ni yatsu we
Zenbu hibi tobashita yarusa

Ore wa kaze ni naru
Sewa ga yakeru yazu
Sono mama de kawarazu ni iro
Itsumo kaze ni naru
Ada wo dakishimeru kono ute ni mamorarete iro

Sunda hitomi de ore wo mitsureru na
Jidiashi wa hi awanai

Onna no wa tsutai wa miage kotoba wa itsumo urahara
Machi ni tereru kara
Konna chippoke na sekai ja usamagi hide nai hito otoko
Ushi no wo tsuite hikara ii

Ore wa kaze ni naru
Omae zutsu ni koru
Kono tsubasa ore tato shite mo
Sogosa kaze ni naru
Fushigi uo yoseru
Mono ni koto hanashitari shinai

Omae no kaze ni naritai
Harikana sora ni ai wo chikau

Ore wa kaze ni naru
Sewa ga yakeru yazu
Sono mama de kawarazu ni iro
Itsumo kaze ni naru
Ada wo dakishimeru kono ute no naka...
Itsudemo kaze ni naru
Omae zutsu ni koru
Kono tsubasa ore tato shite mo
Sogosa kaze ni naru
Fushigi uo yoseru
Mono ni koto hanashitari shinai

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Becomes the Wind
Atori Mahiro

You'll become the wind

This meaning is fine, but I still need to understand
Your thoughts only
Ten people sharing a corner, but there's only one cute person
Is it fine to simply sit beside you?

Whatever cause makes you feel down, attend and bind it whithin
Stop and take a rest
You were in the company of boys yesterday and a guy made you cry
Well, everything was just a joke

I'll become the wind
Becoming tinted with trouble
That same color has been replaced
I'll always become the wind
While holding you close, you've already gained a guardian

I gaze into gentle eyes
The light of day can't compare to it

Girls go along with flattering words in their hearts
Therefore, the path is brightened for them
If it's like this, your world will be filled with competing boys
But I will fight to stand out

I'll become the wind
Devoting myself one at a time for you
I'll make this wings your shield
When I become the wind
It brings closer a miracle
Of the fact that I won't let go of that person

I'll become your wind
And pledge my love for you to the distant sky

I'll become the wind
Becoming tinted with trouble
That same color has been replaced
I'll always become the wind
While holding you close, you've gained whithin...
Becoming the wind anytime
Devoting myself one at a time for you
I'll make these wings your shield
When I become the wind
It brings closer a miracle
Of the fact that I won't let go of that person

Kagura no Youni

2009-03-08T16:48:00.003+08:00

Okay, since I'm on a Hiiro no Kakera and Fujita Maiko obsessive roll, I decided to translate the lyrics of the character songs and all. So here's the first, and I'll keep on posting the rest. At least I have a new reason to continue coming to my blog, lol; The YouTube vid autoplays and loops, and I LOVE that song. Unortunately, I don't know who sang it, or if the person who sang this song is called "Promise You", because the caption before the song starts says "Music by [Promise you]". Seriously, English can be a confusing language sometimes. XD

Anyway, I'd like if anyone could get the title and the singer of my YouTube vid for me, please? So I can download the song. I have this version because I downloaded it off YT, and converted it into an Mp3 format.

About Takuma's character song, I think it's somewhat like him. It starts off with a mysterious tune, quite solemn and melancholic at the same time. Tomokazu Sugita-san's voice here (also the voice for Kyon in The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya) sounds so haunting and deep it sends shivers down my spine... Brrrrr! *__*. The pace of the song picks up at the chorus, then slows down again to a sedate pace, and gains tempo in the end before another slow stop. To me, the whole song reflects Takuma-kun's thoughts, and builds up a climax at the last part before a slow stop. After all, Takuma-kun is the descendant of the Oni, forced to bend and protect the Tamayohime, so he is very reluctant about his duty as a Guardian, but in the end, he falls in love with her. He can't control his power too, so probably that explains the fluctuations of tempo and rhythm in the song. It's like a story of his inner thoughts, really.. where he's first bitter towards his duty, and then slowly begins to warm up to Tamaki, falling in love and swearing to protect her in the end.

Just like the game storyline. XD

But all in all, I TOTALLY love this song. ^^

Kagura No Youni
Onizaki Takuma

Wakaru te ita ko naru koto subete ga
Me wo sora shite osasete ita kimochi wo
Mitsu kara nai kotae sagashi motometeru
Muzu no shiteru tasuru ga nara tokenai

Yume wo kanaetai
Yume wo kowashite

Tatakai ga ore wo yoku ima wa made na youna
Kono chikara wo subete unmei sae kowatte

Odayaka naru kimi ga tsuzuku soren de mo
Yomette miru mei mienai nani ka ga

Omae wo mamoritai
Sore ga kotaen da

Ano sora no shitade ima futatetari todoite
Sore dome no yurukinai kou sa kusuru omoi

Yuki ga mau kono nagamete ku
Chiyori mo nashika na

Naki yotteru kudori mo uketomeru ikenai
Chikai au kudai ni wa kotoba wa mou iranai da
Kateken yuku kokoro ka ga norikomeru fukai de
Hanarenai hanasanai motte hayaku

Hayaku...

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The Way of Kagura
Onizaki Takuma

Every small matter grows to be more understandable
Look at the sky, I discover that it holds my feelings
I can't reply to the searching demands from gentleness
I could attain countless discoveries but there's no time

Unable to dream
My dream is destroyed

My desire is to fight, yet the time is not now
This power is everything, my destiny, and it cannot be destroyed

Nevertheless, this feeling continues to become calmer
I quit trying to be better, nothing can be seen

I will protect you
Well, what is your answer?

Now, two persons arrive under the sky
But it's not slow at the oppressive intersection

Look at this snow from before
Even then, it falls, doesn't it?

Cry out because I'm worthless, even then, I should deal with it
Again, I make this pledge in a language no one understands
The right process is the leave my heart, but I will overcome this deeply in
Not leaving you, not letting you go, (please) hurry more

Hurry...

Bleh...

2009-03-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

Current song: Kimi ga te wo nobasu saki ni (Fujita Maiko)

Ugh... at last I decided to give up the other layout since it was getting a bit too boring for my eyes. And so I've decided that I'll edit my own layout, but unfortunately, I've only done the header/banner on the top of the page. I've yet to finish trying to make the page look more snazzy and everything....... but I'm currently working on another banner on Photoshop. I'm also thinking of putting a watermark on that one and posting it on my Deviantart account.... Geez, or maybe not. That was my first try at making a banner, and it didn't turn out as bad as I expected.

Unfortunately now I'm going to have to search for all my lost links and add it back. I seem to have lost so many.......

Things I need to do?
1) Get a PSP... or a DS if I can't get that PSP so I can 'molest' the Hiiro no Kakera boys on the touch screen, bwahahaha....... I've got my sights set on Takuma. (Honestly, I think that's the nicest part of the DS game, getting to touch the characters to get different rections.... *A* ARRRR!!!! I LOVE Mahiro-senpai and Takuma-kun!!!! *pant pant*)
2) Get the Hiiro no Kakera game
3) Brush up my Photoshop skills (Banners, editing pictures for my MS RP chara, making emo pics XDD I think the color changing thing is what I do.. but I'm all set to practice on my banners for now.)

Guaaaa... okay. So I've been having some issues, and some pretty interesting discussions about bratty and stuck up people which some call, bitches. That would probably be the result of a cup of coffee and hanging out on the phone. So yeah. What defines a stuck up person? Maybe one who likes stepping on your head because you're nice to her, making her own rules, talking behind your back and so on.

Counterattack: Act nice to her, let her step on your head and be a bitch to you and when she's gone, stab her in the back. Sweet.

Yeah, I know. I'm just thinking on a particular incident that got me pissy and all. Agh, God.. why do I put up with this sometimes. *Feels like strangling that particular person.. no not you, Mahiro-senpai...* You know, if I could, I'd just move out of the house during Chinese New Year or something and go enjoy myself in my friend's apartment, drinking shots all night long.

But enough about that, it's been so long since I updated my blog, to cute the story short:

Back to college, passed A Levels, now an Inter Jan student, has a super rich friend (envious eyes), and a wierdo in class. @__@ I'm not joking about the wierdo. He's wierd, alright. We dub him, 'The Excuse Me guy'. XDD But he's a nice guy, really... so I'm not going to start um.... 'complaining' or anything.

The Fast and The Furious is coming baaaaccckkk... Hot cars, hot cars.....

Kimi Ga Te Wo Nobasu Saki Ni
Hiiro no Kakera PSP opening
Fujita Maiko

Tsumetai kouki na yozora wo tsutsunde
Ame ga yuki no naru
Doshite suki ni naru hito ni wa mou
Aiteba hirota wo

Nozon demo munashi kono no dake na no ni ne
Aitai...

Yaru no osore owotto shite mo
Dame mitai do sureba ii
Kimi ni hitsu owotto sureta ii
Kimi ga te wo nobasu saki ni
Watashi ga inare tara
Donna ni shiawase naro

Yasashiku sareru to na takuru shikunaru
Matta kitta aishiteru

Sonna koto kurikaesu dake de doko ni wo
Susurenai

Ima wa kono kimochi dake de
Ganbareru te no hontou wa
Kimi ni dakeshimeraretai
Aisareru shiawase wo
Kono te de kanjitai
Donna ni shiawase naro

Kimi ni hitsu owotto suretai
Watashi ja ikenai no ka na

Narundo wasure owotto shite mo
Dame mitai do sureba ii
Kimi ni hitsu owotto suretai
Kimi ga te wo nobasu saki ni
Watashi ga iraretara
Keshite sono te wo hanasenai
Watashi ga irareta nara
Keshite hanasanai no ni

Ash to Ash lyrics

2009-01-15T15:40:00.007+08:00

Ash to Ash, Lamia Loveless theme and somehow Aschen Brodel theme too. ^^ Thought I'd transcribe and translate the lyrics here....... Currently obsessed with the song.

PS: That will be the day when Axel and Lamia both duet... hehehehe....

ASH TO ASH

Ah, watashi wa kokoro no nai doru*
Ah, watashi wo sagashite
Ash, tsumetai kokoro wa haiiro
Ash, nakigara motomete
Dakedo, ima made to wa chigaru ara ta na
Kanjou umare hajime watashi wo madorashi
Nigorasu mo wakaranai

Ima maioribu no wa ash to ashes
Sameta te ushi
Ima kakeru keru no wa ash to ashes
Sameta kokoro....
Ash to ashes......

Sou, hajimete kizuita nukumori
Sou, watashi mo motteta
Ash, dareka wo mamori nuki taito
Ash, hajimete omoeta

Dakara, kono inochi sasagete mamoru yo
Donna ni tsurai toki demo watashi mo osorezu
Tatakau wo mayou wa nai

Ima tachi mukau no wa ash to ashes
Sameta te ushi
Ima mai agaru no wa ash to ashes
Sameta kokoro...
Ash to ashes........

*it's supposed to be "nai aru", meaning"does not exist', but Lamia/Axel sings it as "nai doru", which means "not a dollar". Of course, I had to use the logical meaning for the translation... ^^;

English Translation

Ah, my heart does not exist
Ah, I will search (for it)
Ash, a cold heart is gray
Ash, because I seek to cry

However, now is neither new nor different
My emotions begin to bloom in the open
It's unclear and I don't understand it

Now, all time becomes ash to ashes
I wake up and I miss it all
Now, I refuse to run from ash to ashes
Awaken my heart....
Ash to ashes.......

Yes, for the first time I cut my bonds
Yes, I too want more
Ash, who can protect a partner from danger
Ash, for the first time I remember

Therefore, I will move back and protect that life
No matter how painful though I'm also frightened
I won't hesitate to fight

Now others face ash to ashes
I wake up and I miss it
Now every rising is from ash to ashes
Awaken my heart...
Ash to ashes........

Boo...

2008-12-30T21:23:00.002+08:00

Roleplaying is definitely dying down on MySpace. Ever since the whole Dante/Jade fiasco, the feel just disappeared! Then people started leaving.. like Lady for instance, and the good ones are rarely on... (like Reno) and all I'm left with are one-liners, noobs and semi-paras that are quite bad! >.< Nooooo!!!!! Why is this happening to me???!!!

Well, I won't say that there's a lot of noobs around... There's still one or two people who are quite good in RPing, my friend Dante (another one) for instance and of course... um.. should I say it here? I've said it like a thousand times, but only in private...

Oh, okay. To protect identity issues, I shall use his nickname. Albino. (There. That should tick him off a bit. XD That's payback for the Edward complex thing and the flat girl comment! >.<)

So Dante and Albino. Only both of them are the best RPers so far that's keeping me alive, Albino especially. If not I'd probably be dead right now and deleting my profile.

Hopefully, that's not gonna happen anytime soon. XDD

Oh wait! I forgot Lara! And Nero Legend! Well, at least they're still there..... *sigh* It still irks me to leave my RP friends behind, especially a certain someone when I leave for camp. I'll miss him.

Terribly.

Because he brightens my day with his RP, and he's funny and kinda scary at times too. ^^ So when I go, I guess I'll have to deal without him being there everyday. >.> Not that I can't live without him, because I CAN, but I'm just used to waking up each day and chatting to him on MSN, so... *Sighs and looks off screen at muse*

Can I write this in Dietriech or Solene's perspective? No? Pleasseeeee?

Alright, no.

*sighs* Huuuuuuuuuuu...............

My life is doomed. I'm just becoming so pessimistic as the New year draws closer and closer. And there's this feeling of dread, looming over me with each passing hour. Great, I just hate the New Year. It's cliche, you know? Celebrating something that doesn't change, because whatever happens, tomorrow will always remain the same.

Argh.. getting emo here again....

Okay, okay.. I'd better stop thinking or talking about the New Year, or I'm really gonna go into full-blown emo mode now. I just finished with RAN Online, helping Nizz to level up her Shaman. She made the same mistake as I did before... not allocating her skill points correctly. I had to delete two characters and now I'm thinking of making a new character now, since my DEX Brawler has a really, REALLY low energy. And my HP is quite bad too. DEX Brawlers don't really have that 'one-hit-kill' thing, more of buffing attacks....

But POW Brawlers kill with a single attack. Of course, low HP as well.

Maybe I should make a New Character... but I'm so lazy to go through all the missions again, and I've already invested all my hard work into my DEX Brawler so... nah. I'm too lazy. :P

Well, the only reason why I'm ranting here is because I'm bored and Lara is on, and I want to do an RP with her that can fit my timeline now. Unfortunately she's busy with some stuff, so I have to wait. But I can't wait any longer cause my back is aching and frankly, I'm tired. I escaped by a hair's breadth last night, at 5:30am and I didn't get much sleep, heh.

So I just want to finish my fruits and haul ass up to bed. *sighs* Great, just great......

I'm bored... so, so bored.....

Tagged! O.O

2008-12-30T04:02:00.002+08:00

Directions: once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment (”you’re it”) and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so i can see your weirdness.

1) I'm random and way spazzy at times.

2) I emo in a corner?

3) We... Are... SPPPPAARRRTTTAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

4) I wanna sleep....... -_-

5) It's 4:03pm right now

6) I call sleeping 'popia-ing' because I roll up. XD

7) Sometimes I stupify myself..

8) My muse hates me!! D:

9) My Dark Magician helper ended up floating in Mount Olympus with my muse.

10) I'm really randoming here....

11) I've got a real terrible temper

12) Why am I even tagged? o.O

13) Food.... I need food......

14) Emo poems are... nice?

15) Headbanging!!!!!!!!

16) The world is coming to an end....... oh, pessimistic me......

I tag:
1. Ayush
2. Frog Prince Julius
3. Lily
4. Ruby
5. Nigel.
6. And anyone else that has a blogger and is reading this. XD

Hot Days...

2008-12-30T03:30:00.002+08:00

Simply wonderful.... the hot days are here (to stay? I hope not!!!!)....

Well, at least that's what I think. I mean, it's been hot for quite a while now, and I don't know if I should enjoy the heat, or I should wait for it to rain. My only problem with rainy days is the thunder. God knows how much I hate thunder... brr.... If it wasn't for my rubber ear plugs, or the music from my phone blasting through my ears, I'd have climbed back into the closet to hide as I used to do.

XD

Call me childish, but it's what I used to do!

Talking bout that, I STILL haven't got a good template for the New Year, and frankly, I'm getting quite bored with this one. Had it for like... almost a year now. Lily says it fits my Emo-ness, but I've seen it far too many times, and you know? Lily changes her template from time to time!! But then again, her's is that normal blog template from Blogspot, so nothing there.

And so ends another year, huhuhuhu..... time to welcome in the year of the Ox in a few weeks time. Sigh.. can't believe it's gonna be January in a few days time... because it means that I'm a year older and college is gonna start. Results, results!!! I'm really scared cause I know I didn't do that well!!! Die la.... dunno if I'm still gonna be traipsing back and forth to college in Petaling Street or not. Some more with the rainy days??? Ai.... It's not where I want to be..

Then comes the fact that I may be shipped off for National Service. Three total months. Not to say that I'm really looking forwards to it. It's more of a mixed feeling. I don't want to go, because it means celebrating my birthday alone and missing someone and my friends... and yet if I don't go, I'm going to get killed by my parents when my results turn up.

See? If I go, I'll be miserable, if I don't go, my life is on the stake. O.O Blah la.... I'm gonna die either way liao...... T^T... Huhuhu...... *cries*

I was thinking, at least if I go and the results turn up, I won't be facing the wrath of my parents directly, because I'll be miles away in camp, and by the time I get back a month later, they'll probably cool down. Probably.

*gulp*

Or maybe I'll just get chewed out.... Oh ye gods!!! Won't someone come and kidnap me to a different country??!!!! I need to escape before I die!!! My head's at stake here!!!!!

Oh, that reminds me.... should I get the suicide note ready? o.O

Or will it be easier to run? XD

Nah..... both are bad ideas... but I'm sooooo scared!!!!!!!!!!

Help me.... someone... o_o

PS: Cheongsam or Kebaya for Chinese New Year? Maybe Cheongsam la.... I like wearing that...... ZOMG, CHINESE NEW YEAR'S LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY AND I HAVEN'T DONE MY SHOPPING YET!!!! >.<

Kaette Oide (I'm Home)

2008-12-17T17:28:00.003+08:00

I'll be honest. I'm a sucker for angst and romance. And this particular song by Oku Hanako got me crying.... and crying... and crying. Poor Dante... Those who are fans or the Devil May Cry games must know about Dante, the main character. He lost his family, forced to kill his own brother, and has no one..

(AND STUPID CAPCOM WON'T EVEN BRING VERGIL BACK!!! ARRGGHHH!!!!)

Someone on Fanfiction.Net watched this and wrote a fanfic about it as well, and we other authors/authoresses that read when running to search for the vid before reading.. and frankly, we all cried. That's a sentimental side of Dante that no one will ever see... he's always so hardcore, upbeat and cheerful... but we writers like exploring his sentimental side. And this?

This was the best. I loved it so much, I watched it over and over and over again.... and cried and cried and cried again, lol. Couldn't help it. To think that he had such a happy family before and then Sparda vanished, Eva was killed by demons, Vergil became corrupted and tried to kill Dante before Mundus turned him into Nero Angelo and Dante himself had to kill his own twin brother.

That has to hurt, to kill the other half of you.

*Sigh*

Okay, I love Vergil, i have to admit that..... and the song has just given me an inspiration... so I'ma gonna go and write a short fanfic.

PS: I'm trying to search for this song to download or put on my blogger profile. Anyone tell me where to find it? Thanks.

Haaah... Still Searching...

2008-12-16T09:43:00.002+08:00

I honestly am still still searching for a new blog template for the next year. I dunno if I should go emo again, but this time, I want something.. mysterious. Yeah. Anyhoo... things really seem to have gotten slow on the MySpace RPing, and my only consolation is that my very good friend (and very good RPer) is back.

Though he deleted his Vergil account and added me to two new ones because CAPCOM posted an article stating very firmly to us begging fangirls out there that "VERGIL IS DEAD!!! GET A LIFE, YOU CHICKS BECAUSE HE AIN'T COMING BACK NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU BEG!!"

Okay, it wasn't exactly stated like that, but that's how it went in my mind after Vergil/Haken told me why he's going to delete his Vergil acc. Maybe I should call him Haken now since he doesn't RP the eldest son of Sparda anymore. I was devastated! I WANTED DMC 5 to be about Vergil or his return or something!!! Come ON, CAPCOM! >.<

Talk about rabid fangirl..... >.>

I played Hotel626 very recently. Ok, I admit I cheated by watching all ten levels on Youtube and god, it freaked me out then. But after I myself started playing, I was like... "hmmm... this isn't so bad... the only demented thing here is the demon baby." Honestly, it's not that scary... it's more of a thriller type, and once you go through a level a few times (yes, it's that hard) you actually tend to expect what might happen so you're ready for whatever that jumps up on screen. You know that short clips that a friend sends you and tells you to look closely while turning up the speaker? Yeah, it's like that, and then you fall off your chair screaming when something horrible suddenly jumps up at you on screen and gives you a heart attack.

So that's basically it. Suuurreee... it gave me the fright of my life when I first started, but it's not so scary now. My thumb's up to you, Doritos! You're a genius to have created that website!!

I wonder if there's more.... *sadistic grins*

Yes, ppl... I'm a sadist....

Okok, so that's it for now, I guess... Still have to go around searching for my template that I want....... till next time.... which will probably be a long time supposing I don't get lazy. XD

Fast Fanfic

2008-12-11T04:02:00.002+08:00

RAN Online fanfic (short one shot)
-------------------------------------------------

(10/12/2008)

Sometimes she forgot she was a girl. Oh yeah. But there were some instances that she was forcefully reminded that she was a girl, and those instances came in embarrassing and humiliating forms.
Jade (Jade008/Brawler) could only thank GOD it was 4 am in the morning, and...... no, she couldn't thank God for this one.... it was raining.

Scowling, she glared at the Swordsman fully clad in armor standing next to her. "Give it back.
"

Jengkol grinned an infuriating grin, eying the bare skin of her arms and shoulders. "I dropped it somewhere back there, I think.
"

"Well, I don't care!! Give my damn coat back!!!" Jade turned an interesting shade of red as she crossed her arms over her pink bra and ran for the campus building, taking shelter under the shade. "This is so embarrassing...."

"Oh, it happens... trust me..." Jengkol gave a loud roar of laughter and went off to get her shirt. Jade sniffled. How the hell she dropped her own shirt, she didn't know. But not many were around at that place where she was so she was grateful for it. The poor female brawler now stood shivering on the porch in her Preparatory Shoes, Preparatory Skirt, her bra and her Heavy Gauntlet on her right arm, her left hand clad in a Glove for defense rather than attack.

"I swear I'm going to Heavy Punch somebody...." she muttered, making a mental note to ask Miyako (Miyako08/Shaman), her Shaman friend at the Sacred Gate campus if anything like this happened before. She often sneaked out of her Mystic Peak campus to visit her friend, and it really exasperated the Shaman to no end. But then again, Brawlers were known for their notorious behavior and uncanny knack for breaking the rules and getting into fights.

Jade wasn't afraid of getting expelled. The main firepower of the school rested in the Brawlers and Swordsmen, so they needed her, like it or not. Her right hand flexed as she glared at a staring Archer... Ryuzen, if she got his name right.... and the gleaming iron of her Gauntlet forming into a fist made him continue on his journey inside the building nervously.

"I got it!" Jengkol's voice pulled her back to earth and she turned, relieved to see him holding out her Preparatory Coat. "Thank god!" Grabbing it, Jade slid it over her head and smoothed down the material, hiding the embarrassed blush she got on her face again.

She could only deduce that the backlash from his Cyclone Slash sword attack KOed her on the spot, making her lose her defense based article of clothing.

"Right, so how many Street Junkies do we have left to kill?" Jengkol asked, hand on the hilt of a giant broadsword strapped to his back.

Jade hesitated. Her mission said she had to eliminate at least 22, and the level of a Street Junkie was way higher that her... which was why she kept getting injured so easily. The rapid healing called Regeneration that she learned healed her wounds in no time, but it left her feeling sore all over. She was already killed 13 with his help... but she couldn't take any more.

"You know what? I'm going back to the dorm...." Jade waved a hand tiredly. "You can stay here and train..... I've been around the main campus since midnight.
"

"Yeah well.... I'm heading to bed too..." Jengkol scratched his chin thoughtfully. "Don't get lost around campus and head back to your own faculty." He grinned. "No going to Sacred Gate or to a Shaman/Swordsman/Archer area.
"

"Oh shut up. I don't wander into any other combat faculties except my own." Jade snapped, then turned, lifting a hand as she walked off.
"Party again tomorrow night?"

"Yeah, see ya." Jengkol hesitated a bit, concentrating for a while as he cast a Tranquility skill to shield her as she made her journey back.
"Night!"

"Night!" Jade called back, a glowing orb of light making an orbit around her. Ugh.... she was really tired and sore.... looks like she would have to crash for now and skip morning classes tomorrow....

"Go Brawlers..." she murmured to herself with a grin when she reached her room and crashed down on the bed, kicking off her shoes, but not bothering to remove the Heavy Gauntlet from her right arm though it was made out of heavy iron. "You don't mess with us, heh........"

Sweet dreams, violent female.
XD

It's Over and Back

2008-12-02T19:13:00.002+08:00

Exam's over...

I'm back from Singapore...

Head a REAL nice time there....

Missing Pepper and Aunty Mildred's cooking..... T^T

Listening to my collection of Japanese Songs...

The current track playing is 'This Love' by Angela Aki...

RPing and talking to Lara on Myspace...

Too lazy to write much...

Updating the 4th Chapter of Rebirthing...

Thinking of using 'The Reason' for it...

Lazy lazy lazy lazy...

This is basically a short and fast recap of what happened in my life for the times I didn't post....

I'm outta here. Ciao!

Huuuu....

2008-11-09T02:09:00.002+08:00

In the middle of the night again.... No ghosties about, hahaha... but then again I'm not going to be so crazy to start watching some ghost films on YouTube and scare myself unnecessarily. I'm dead tired, and my brain... is just not working at the instant.

I have tons of things to do:

1) Finish up the Amaranth chappie on my Roleplay blog
2) Think bout what to write for the National Novel Writing Month
3) START writing
4) Study and get exams over with
5) Come up with 175 pages and 50,000 words before November 30 in what short time I have left.

Which means I'm going to have to write... and write... and write... and totally squeeze my brain dry of ideas and so. I just figured something out today... I can write really well when I'm aggravated. You know, when someone pisses me off, or I get all emo and that kinda stuff... It surprises me a bit, but suddenly I find my hand writing, and it's actually a good way to release anger, you know. Just write and write and write and let the words magically appear on the paper.

You won't have a clue as to what you're writing about, but it comes as a pleasant surprise once you stop and read everything over again.

Uh huh. Seriously.

People don't think it's a future, but I say to HELL with it. If I want to write, I'm gonna write and screw what other people think, because once I set my mind to it... I'll show you what I CAN write about.

Phew.. ranting done..

Ugly the Cat

2008-10-24T02:24:00.002+08:00

This is a story about a cat named Ugly that my brother JC posted up on MySpace bulletins. I skimmed it over once and it made me cry, so I read it again to really understand it. This story about a stray little cat in search of love is just so touching and sad, I sometimes wonder.. why do people treat animals so cruelly and turn them away?

Try putting yourself in Ugly's shoes. How would it feel like, then?

When I was reading this, I imagined my own cat in Ugly's place, and I felt really painful inside.

During my high school days, there was a tom cat exactly like Ugly in my school. Though his condition wasn't as bad as Ugly's, his head, ears and shoulders were covered in scabs and sores, and he was pitifully thin. The students would scream and run each time he came near them to beg for a bit of food during recess, and water would be splashed on him to chase him away. I made my fame in MGS during my time as the cat girl, so it wasn't surprising that I was the only one who fed it, gave it a name and gave it at least a bit of love.

I didn't care about how it was, scabs or skin disease or not, I would stroke it, scratch it under it's chin and pet it's head. For a year, this cat survived with me feeding it.

Then the holidays came and went and I returned for Form 5. I didn't see this cat around at first, and when he retured, it was clear that it was nearing it's life's end. Over the holidays with no one to feed it, my little Stripey had grown thin, and was weak, moving with a crawl and hardly a meow to beg for food. The scabs on his shoulders had spread to his legs, and he looked worse then before. I fed it, but it was clear that there was nothing I could do to save him.

It was one of the worst days in my life when I watched him starve to death, the only girl in a school of hundreds that cried for a single, starving cat.

When I was in Form 1, I bought a book at a second-hand book fest called 'The Snow Kitten', by Nina Warner Hooke. This tale made me cry the entire time I was reading it, from the first page to the last. It has a happy ending, though. I'm grateful because someone thought of posting it up on the internet for everyone to read, and I hope that those who read it will realise the cruelty of abandonment and that it's wrong to mistreat stray animals.

For those who want to read it, this is the link:

http://www.temkit.com/Snow-kitten/Snow-KittenTOC.htm

I have always been a lover of cats since I was a kid. I don't know why, but everywhere I go, there the cats are. I've played with and missed a lot of different stray cats in my life, but the cat that I remember the most is a little Seal Point I named Serena. I first met her in the rain, and she was the one that made me realize that even strays need a bit of love. She was ever ready for a pat and was always rubbing up against my leg for attention. Long gone now, I still give Serena my love and I will never forget her.

I cried when I type this post out.

I cry for all the stray animals out there that are searching for a bit of love, and I cry for all the stray animals I've known in my life and have gone.

~Dedicated to
Dietrich
January 2007 - October 2008
From puppy to dog, I had you for a year
Only a stray, yet my loyal companion
My best friend, my guardian while I walked
I loved you like my own~

Hu hahahah....

2008-10-08T21:09:00.003+08:00

Wah... some ppl so inconsiderate wan.... Day before yesterday was walking home from the bus stop and it was raining hard, so no choice, wet also I gotta walk cause it was already almost 7. So there I was wearing a hoodie and all to keep myself dry, walking back in the rain when I reached this part of the shops that was flooded. No choice wat, what to do, hafta go out and walk on the pavement la.

So close to my home, yet I got all wet.. T^T

There was a jam as usual from the school behind my house, with a police car stuck there, and policemen watching the road. Out of no where comes this green Perodua and splashes water all over me. Some ppl think it's so funny to see a gal get wet.. purposely spped up and run right into a puddle to splash water all over my pants.

Got so pissed off and police didn't do anything at all.. >_>;;

Haizz... has been so lazy to write in lately since last week..

Untitled

2008-09-25T21:31:00.004+08:00

Uhhhhh....... what to name this entry... what to blog about, hmmm..... Omg, I have milk powder on my finger! XD *brushes it off* Sikh club in college had Henna art yesterday and I was like, "I want!!!!!" So I had fun with it and tada! Henna on my hand! I'm a bit happy with it, and hopefully it won't fade cause I want it for Raya.

(Henna art on my hand from the Sikh Club in college! ^^)

Omg, and my RAN online installation cd came yesterday! I can't believe it! At least now I can start playing RAN online! Oh hohohohoho..... *evil anime laugh* So efficient.. they said whithin seven working days... and it did come whithin seven working days! Huh... so much better than HighStreet 5... haven't even got the cd yet! >.<>.> His Dean Winchester account rawks!! ^^ So my dilemma is... stick with the emo layout, or change? I wanna change to Supernatural if they have it! UuUUuUuUuUuuuu......... If I put in that cowboy song, it's not gonna fit in with my emo-ness that I'm trying to project.

Well, I may not act like an emo gal, but I like acting like one. I mean, it's fun to put on all the emo makeup. XD And I'm quite good at it.

Talking bout that, Lily promoted my emo poem on her blog, hahaha. I have another, but I'm gonna put it on later.. cause my cat... is currently asleep on my lap and I can't move cause I love it a bit too much and I don't wanna wake my Baby Boy up. *Rolls eyes and sighs*

Yee ha!

Damn you Dean! It's your fault I'm addicted to those cowboy songs right now! ^w^ But Deanie is sooooo adorable..... I can't stay mad at him for long... hehe...

So.

New layout or stick with the old one?

Supernatural or Emo?

(Points at Supernatural and goes into raving, crazed fangirl mode, screaming out Dean's name for all to hear)

Kan Cheong Kitchen

2008-09-23T02:10:00.003+08:00

Kan Cheong Kitchen it is for me today, huhuhu.... And for a few weeks probably... T^T Problem all started after mom got hit my a bike and fractured her back bone, so now she has to wear a brace and she can't move around much.

Which means I have to cook for my dad when he gets home from work.

And I have no idea how to cook.

I mean, literally.

So under my mom's guidance, I venture into the kitchen, which is my battleground, and delve into the world of cooking for the first time. *gulps* Armed with a spatula and a wok, I proceed to turn up the flames a bit and heat up the oil to attack my enemy:

A block of Tau Kuah.

The oil is boiling now and mom is all, "Put the tau kuah in! Just put it in!" And I'm screeching, "Battle orders unable to be carried out!!!!!" which translates into a whining, "HOW LA?!!!"

In the end, I manage to slide in the offending blob of cold whiteness that makes the oil jump and splatter on my arms in little tiny drops. Offending... very offending... A few minutes later, I have to turn it around and this time, I WON'T even touch the wok's covering with a cloth. But orders and orders and at Captain Mom's instruction, I did turn the thing over... which getting droplets on my face and hand again.

But at the end of the day, my mission was complete and the war was won. And the white block of Tau Kuah was now white on the inside and crispy golden on the outside.

At least I didn't hanguskan the Tau Kuah on my first try at cooking, right? XD Hahah, pai seh la if cao ta....

(Hah! The end result of my frying the Tau Kuah! See? No hangus right? XD Haha, beautiful!)

Fanfiction

2008-09-17T11:47:00.002+08:00

So I've been thinking of deleting those stories with multiple chapters since I always have no time to update them. It's not like I have no time too... I'm a bit too lazy to write and my muse keeps flying off to some la la land.. mount Olympus, if I'm not wrong. >.> I get the randomest, wierdest ideas each time I'm bored, but when I touch the keyboard or pick up a pen... Blankness. It's almost as if roleplaying has squeezed out each and every last one of my ideas.

Haaaa... and Tarja from Nightwish has amazing vocals.... so relaxing... for a rock band. ^^ Looks like I know what band my Fanfic band Forlorn will be emulating. XD Nightwish.

Forlorn started when I was watching Yu-Gi-Oh! in Form 3. My character Ryorin/Jade is the vocals and 2nd guitarist, Bakura gets the bass (and he's wicked at it) and provides the male vocals too, Yami/Yugi plays the drums, and Malik plays the keyboard. Female backup vocalists are Serenity and Mai. ^^

Ah, but then again... I'm going off track here... Honestly, my mind wanders just as easily as my muse. I feel like chaining both to my head, but then again..... sigh... Okay, the truth is, I left business Class halfway during break and here I am now, listening to Nightwish's album, "Dark Passion Play" and watching DMC amvs made out of it while trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my fanfics on Fanfiction.net. Cause I'm much better as a oneshot writer. And multiple chapters don't really do good for me, lol.

The reason is:
1) Laziness to write
2) Writer's block (due to my muse taking unexpected holidays to visit her dear father on Mount Olympus)
3) ....
4) The story doesn't turn out the way I want it to.

So yeah. Sorry to all my fans following the story in the Bleach section. I'm deleting it and hopefully, I'll come up with a better idea than that. See, the problem is I have the ending, I have the beginning... but the middle just disappeared. So I'll have to start with something new.

That's all for now... I think. I'll come back later to add some stuff just for the heck of it if there is anything else to add.

Akatsuki Dreams

2008-09-16T15:06:00.002+08:00

So I was playing 7 minutes in heaven on Myspace Quizzers. Now, I never payed much attenttion to the Akatsuki members before, except for Uchiha Itachi. But hoo, boy!!! The pictures are so DAMN HOT!!!! Man.. never thouught Hidan could be so... deliciously sexxxxyyyyy...... oh yeaaahhhhhh... *drools* Honestly... I think I'm going to search for as many emo Hidan pics on Deviantart.. and all hail the sexiness of Uchiha Itachi!!!!!! Sasuke could never be as hot as him! Hah! Take that, bitch!!!!! XD

(UCHIHA ITACHI. Mmm... extra delicious. Ohhh yeaaahhhh....)

(DEIDARA. Emo much? Hehehe... Hot damn!!! emo Deidara is SOOOOOOOOOO CCCUUUUTTTEEEE!!!! *drools*)

(AKASUNA NO SASORI. Hmm... well, yeah. he can be cute too. ^^)

(TOBI. Uh.... I dunno what to say...)

(HIDAN. See what I mean by Hidan is sexy and hot? XD Irresistable..)

Whoa Oh! Roleplaying Blues!

2008-09-10T02:01:00.004+08:00

My best friend's hot, my best friend's hot..

No matter what I do, he'll love me not.

>.>

Uh huh... I'm caught up in my MySpace RPing again! Well... after Vergil dumped me, I kinda moved on, setting my sights on one of my best friends... DANTE SPARDA!

Yes... my RolePlaying is getting out of hand.. the scenes and the feelings are getting a bit too realistic for my deranged mind at the instant... I mean, wow! I know I'm a sucker for romance and drama, but today's RP took the cake! Okay, if you want to see what I mean, here. Here's a part of me and Dante's RP:

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Dante: -grins and rubs the back of his neck- you think I'm special that's awesome

Jade: *grins* that's because you are. Trust me.

Dante: -goes red in the cheeks- thanks your very special to me.

Jade:*smiles and blushes, putting her hands behind her back.* that makes two of us, then...

Dante: -hugs her- I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you

Jade: *she hugged back* Well... Honestly, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me all year round.

Dante: -smile widely- you too, you're going to have to stop I'm getting a big head, just kidding.

Jade: *smiles and teases him* yeah, that makes me wonder... Are you still single, or are you dating Nero? *she poked his nose*

Dante: -is shocked- you found out Noooo!!! -grins- still single

Jade: *shocked* Omg, Nero! Well, I'm not going to let him know, or he'll blow up like last time... *laughs* hmm... Haven't found the perfect girl yet, huh?

Dante: I have but I not going to spoil the friendship -grins-

Jade: Hmm... Makes me wonder... *thinks* who is that girl...?

Dante: -shrugs with a grin- don't know some hot looking chick

Jade: Hmm... Could it be me? *grins*

Dante: -smirks- possibly

Jade: *puffs cheeks* aw, come on... Tell me.

Dante: -cocks his head on the side with a smile on his face- some day I will but for now I have to keep it here -taps his heart with his fist-

Jade: *she smiled and nodded* I'll wait until that day, then... But you must promise to tell me, okay?

Dante: -dante took a hold of her hand- when that day comes I promise to tell you

Jade: *she nodded again, tears welling up in her eyes for no reason.* you big idiot... Don't keep the suspense up...

Dante: -Dante lowered his eyes for a moment- Jade I have to sort some things out with Maria before I can move on before I can do anything
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And that's what went on today. Normally we don't do dialogues unless it's in quick messages, or in bulletins. Trust me, our Roleplaying is far more advanced that that. We're not dialogue people or one-liners. We're mostly Para (paragraph) or Semi-para (half a paragraph). The best I've been in before is with my MySpace father, King Aries Villanite and Vergil, Son of Sparda. The minimum amount of paragraphs we send each other goes around 2 to 3.

And the maximum sent is about 6 paras.

Don't believe me? Haha.... then here's a sample.
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DANTE [the S.O.B]
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(Dante in itallic
Jade in normal)

Trouble, that's what she was in. Damn, if only she had listened to Nina a long time ago and stayed away from those darn spells, she wouldn't be in this mess now, with dozens of eyes gazing at her with sharp, prodding looks that made curse the human race.

A simple spell that went wrong had altered her Devil form, and she hadn't realized it, not until it was too late and she had Devil Triggered to avoid from drowning. Why the hell was she doing a spell in the sea in the first place? Jade didn't know.

But she was half-fish now, and the water in this round tank was FREEZING. Not too bad to her, but she knew she'd be shivering once she got out. Caught by some guy in a net, Jade was now trapped in a large, round aquarium complete with seaweeds, rocks and small fishes while she... was the main center of attraction. The "Mermaid Princess caught in the South Seas".

In truth, she suspected the man who held her prisoner here dabbled in the occult, seeing that a demon ward had been put around the tank to keep her from escaping, and she couldn't return to her human form even if she wanted to.

Brushing the strands of fake pearls out of her eyes for the hundredth time that week, she swam to another side of the tank.. and caught a flash of silver hair. Stiffening, she tried to see who the silver-haired person was, but there were too many people around.

Down in Devil City Dante was out getting his pizza as usual when his ice blue eyes caught the sight of an old man reading the newspaper, it wasn’t actually the old man that caught his attention but the picture on the front of the paper, he knew that face anywhere, he walked up to the old man and asked for a gander at it, and sure enough there was Jade on the front page Dante chuckled and looked at the old man “well look at that eh, a mermaid might have to go check that one out” he chuckled again and leaving the pizza place forgetting about his hunger.

He headed straight for the aquarium centre in a flash of red light it didn’t too long before he arrived at the front door and the place was packed, well with the new attraction who could blame every man and his dog for being there. Dante made his way through the crowd of people seeing Jade in the tank and made his way around to the other side of it, pushing through the rest of the crowd he finally made it to stand in front of the glass, he tapped on the tank to get Jade’s attention when she looked at him he would begin to speak to her “and what have you been up to little miss? This is a damn fine way of taking a dip” he shook his head looking over the tank and the security planted around the place.
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King Aries Villanite
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(Aries in itallic
Jade in normal)

She stood before him, her expression both of defiance and determination. Emerald eyes held burned with fiery passion in their depths though a part of her quailed at the sight of the magnificent demon lord. Long black hair cascaded down her back, some strands lying across the leathery wings folded close to her back, curled horns curving out of her head.

This young girl of 18, though she claimed she was 20, was Jade Castero, the adopted daughter of Nina Castero. Stubborn, defiant and having all the rebelliousness of a young and rash adult, she had come to see him this day to ask him of one thing.

Jade wasn't really a demon to begin with. She had been born a human, and it was only recently during the beginning of the year that she had taken demon blood into her veins, thus changing who she was for good. The person responsible for that was Vergil, the oldest son of Sparda. That made her half-demon, yet not quite. But compared to King Aries Villante, who was a thousand lifetimes older than her, she was but a mere fledgling, only a few weeks old.

It was probably why her stomach churned slightly, and probably why she felt slightly safer in her demon form. But she had no intention of fighting this almighty God. No, she only came to see him to ask him of one thing.

To take care of her mother, Nina Castero.

This city had been growing in the last few months, it seems its night life attracted just as many people as its active day life. But right now, the streets weren't as filled as always, it was twilight. When the respectable beings of life retreated into their homes and the slightly less respectable ones came out to play.

Aries had been out all day, he could easily fit into either category, though he did like the latter much more. The king was wearing a long, black coat that hovered slightly above the ground beneath him. Under the coat, a tight black t-shirt was exposed that clung beautifully to his muscular chest and revealed it in flawless detail.

His dress pants and dress shoes completes his somewhat eerie, but attractive outfit. His long, black hair swayed from side to side as he walked down the street, he could feel eyes on him and knew exactly where they were coming from. It was annoying.

It was true, she did end up standing before him, but only after she wold blink. Aries had been far from her, but the instant her eyes had closed and opened, he was in front of her. His 8'11" figure towering over hers as he looked down at her, "Can I help you...?" He questioned. His voice was deep, strong and wise, but it held a cruel, dominant tone to it. As if disobeying him would be the last thing one would ever do.

As soon as he was near her, the air got very cold. A strange type of cold, one that sent shivers up and down one's spine and pure fear into a person's heart. Oddly enough, his body was very warm, a comforting, alluring warmth that would tempt anyone. As if this wasn't enough, his scent was thick around him, it was delicious, addictive and very tempting, promising a savory flavor from the source.

On the other end, though, Aries could smell a scent that disgusted him. The scent of a Sparda, a clone one at that. Oh how he despised this scent, and he knew it well. Long ago, Eva Sparda was his queen, and to this day he would still kill her if he saw her again. The very name Sparda was ruined decades ago, these little creatures running around as clones are nothing.

Yes, Jade was a weak demoness compared to Aries, but at the same time, even Vergil was millions of years behind the demon king.
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Vergil, Son of Sparda
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(Vergil in itallic
Jade in normal)

Night. And rain. Ah yes, it was raining, again. Jade was soaked through to the bone, her clothes clinging to her figure, long hair plastered to the side of her face. She looked young, no older than 18, but she always said her age was twenty. Not too tall, not too short (though she was pretty sensitive when it came to her height), Jade Castero had a light and lean build for a young woman, a sign that she was not at all your ordinary girl.

Emerald green eyes blinked as raindrops got into them, two thick and wavy lines on either side of her neck standing out in the dark. She was half-demon, but no one knew that... unless she decided to show them. And why?

Because she was young. Very young. Too young to be out fighting, but there you are. Life wasn't a bed of roses sometimes. Compared to other demons who were decades or a thousand lifetimes old, she was probably just a young fledgling to them.. but she could hold her own when she wanted to.

The rain made her jeans wet and her off shoulder purple top cling to her figure, and she sighed under her breath. This wasn't the first time she had gotten caught in the rain while doing a mission. She had been through worse.

In her left hand, she held a katana, something she had found in her adopted mother's basement and fell in love with. It was all she had needed that night. Job done, she was on the way home when the heavens had poured down on her.

Curse. The. Rain.

'From the end of the beginning to the beginning of the end'.

That words had driven Vergil to a new research. The one who said them wasn't exactly someone that would lie, but she was someone that liked to make riddles. He had left everything behind just like the last time. However, leaving Dante without an explanation and now that they had settled things couldn't have been the best, but this seemed important. At least for Vergil.

So far, he had gotten few references for more information, but every step that he made created more and more questions. Some things had started to have sense and other still puzzled him, but he had the feeling that everything was related somehow.

Now, he had moved to the next city and was pretty much deep into the books of the main library of the city. They did have a good collection of books and some books he hadn't even seen before, but... no one of them was useful.

Now, he was wearing quite a simple outfit to not call a lot of unwanted attention on this new place. He had a black shirt and a pair of comfortable jeans with a silver chain that dangled from his pocket. After checking the last useful book on the library he went out taking his black coat from the chair he was using. Several thoughts crossed through his mind while he was still trying to solve this.

He didn't even mind the rain which made his hair go down. He hated that, but he couldn't help it. He took the way back to the motel where he was staying. Vergil had borrowed some money from Lady that, unlike Dante, he was really gonna pay back once he figured this deal out. He advanced down the street crossing with some people that was 'escaping' from the rain.
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There. That's just a sample of what and how we roleplay. Want to join us in our MySpace world? Go build up a character, or take a character from any show/anime and make a MySpace account! Let your creative juices flow and improve your imagination and english! ^^

And talking about imagintation and english.............. I haven't updated a story in Fanfiction.net yet... >.> Oi veigh.. I think I'll just delete the chaptered stories and stick to one-shots.. or delete the exsisting chapters and write a whole new one instead...

MySpace links to the Roleplayers stated above:

Jade Castero (MINE) : http://www.myspace.com/death_god_ryorin
Dante [the S.O.B] : http://www.myspace.com/dantedarkavenger
King Aries Villanite: http://www.myspace.com/villanite
Vergil, Son of Sparda: http://www.myspace.com/shall_never_surrender

To all RPers stated above (excluding me, of course) I"M SORRY I USED OUR RPS IN MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!

Super Awake

2008-08-30T02:46:00.002+08:00

It's Friday... It's Friday... Or is it Saturday? Early Saturday it must be, then... ugh, yeah. It's 2:47 am according to my computer, and I'm still wide awake so I thought of coming to exhaust my mind a bit, write in my blog.

Hell yeah, I can't sleep.

Probably because I was using mobile to send messages to Vergil on MySpace..... >.> *sheepish piggy look* (*whines* I can't do a piggy avy with my keyboard!!! Nuuu!!!)

Anyway.... I just need to crap a bit here and there, maybe state what's on my blank mind... or just let my fingers type away. Yeah, that's it. Let my fingers type away. Ooh, you know what? Avril Lavigne's concert was in town today at Stadium Merdeka! And it like FREAKING NEXT to my college! T^T I didn't have classes today... I would have so totally gone and gatecrashed the area... sobsob.. and I so wanted to meet Avril too! I'm like one of her biggest fans or something. Yes, or something. Because I didn't know Avril until my cousin Rusti introduced me to her first album. Then I fell in love with her and has been in love with her songs ever since.

And Vergil's logged off MySpace. Damn, because then I would have came down for nothing.. Should I go check Neopets, I wonder..? o.O

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3:05am
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I wanna go see Death Race... Uuuuuu!!!!

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3:17am
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It's a jackal, if you want to know. ^^

Okay... I really have nothing else to write and Vergil's gone, so I'm outta here too... Damn the guy.. He leaves when things get really interesting...

It's Over....

2008-08-22T16:53:00.003+08:00

The Olympics are finally over, with lots of bangs and a reall wicked closing ceremony. Hey, at least Malaysia managed to get a silver. XD Kudos to Lee Chong Wei, who did really well until Lin Dan crushed him to the ground. Not saying that Malaysia is totally pathetic, but in five years time, we may be able to get the gold for Malaysia! ^^ Who knows?

The computer is finally back in order and working, lol. After that short circuit, I had to use my phone instead, and it's really costing me lots of money. But I'm in college right now, and using the "slowest-effin-computer-in-the-world", and I'm hungry cause I haven't gone for lunch yet. Reason? I was checking up and updating my MySpace, then learning how to use a lighter from "K". And talking about MySpace, check this out;

Kain's friend hooked me up with my ex, Steven, so we're talking. Not long after, Vergil took off without a goodbye with a different girl. And Brian has been wanting to end this, so I ended.. or rather, terminated our relationship online. So what are the odds? A straight flush, maybe? Oh... and surprisingly... Steven STILL remembers my name. He called me Steph. Hmmmm.. so maybe the odds has increased... a full house? Lol... XD

I've been a bit depressed over the Vergil thingy, but we're talking things out on MySpace, and I am back! Well, the main reason is because revision classes has started in college and it signals the approaching exams. So I can't mope around, but I have to STUDY, STUDY, STUDY! (Millitary march) And yeah, at night when no one's looking, I can be as depressed as I want to be, sit in a corner, emo about my horrible life and cry, maybe cut a wrist or two..... NOT!

Okay, I'm getting hungry. And I mean, really hungry. I only had a cup of milo for breakfast cause I came to college early in the morning for the sole purpose to listen to a dialouge session with Lord Anthony May from the UK. It was a nice session, though my head started hurting... I swear I have to go see a doctor... these headaches are unnatural...

Alright, then. I guess that's all for now... I really wanna go eat and I'm stuck between going to Mc D's as usual, or make the trip of KFC so I can pass by LuluBelle and check out how much a LB purse costs.....

Ciao. Adios, amigos...

Auspicious Day

2008-08-08T15:13:00.003+08:00

Guess what? It's FATT/ FATT/ FATT today! XD Lol, no... if you don't know what I mean, it's the 8th of August 2008. A very auspicious date for those of us who are chinese. Because in Cantonese, 8 means fatt.. and fatt means PROSPERITY! ^^ So today is a VERY auspicious day, though in the hungry ghost month, but I"m sure there's a lot that will get married on this day.

Damn, wish I could too. It's a once in an eternity chance, and it's only going to happen today in this lifetime.

(Time cut- Listening to: Wiccan Lullaby)

Anyway, today is also going to be the opening for the Beijing Olympics. Hopefully I can get back in time to catch it because I heard it's really going to be good. Not only am I Chinese, it's CHINA, the country where my ancestors come from, so... maybe I'm a bit excited about watching it. Heck, I think the whole world is excited about it at the instant.

(Time cut- Listening to: Wytches Chant)

Erm, yes, I'm listening to Wiccan songs from Inkkubus Sukkubus. I love those songs, especially the circle one. It's been a while since I listened to Wiccan songs... and somehow today I totally need peace of mind. I need something to calm myself, cause I don't really feel good right now. *Sighs* I don't know why, but I feel as if a storm is brewing in me. And hopefully repetition of the Wytches Chant can cool me off.

Honestly, I feel so close to using Black Magick right now... but I tell myself not to, because I don't want my soul tainted black. It's already tainted as it is... it doesn't need to be any blacker.

Alright, then... I guess I'll stop here for now. I need to go look at some Wiccan sites to clam myself down a bit. I feel so alone and troubled... I need the Goddess with me.

Stressed

2008-08-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

Yep.. I'm stressed. I can't get ANYTHING into my head at the instant. >.< mock exams are like a week plus away and yet I just can't study! okay, so I am ATTEMPTING to study, but nothing can get into my head!!! I'm going out of my mind!!! Arrggghhhhhhh!!!!! I feel like I'm gonna die anytime soon, but then again, Dante from MS told me not to stress so much. He told me to relax a bit, then maybe the mental block will go away.

I'm literally freaking out and panicking now. I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die!!! Ahhhh!!!! NoooO!!!!

Oh man......... if only I know what to do about this.

Bad enough that I'm already banned from the computer... but I get my time sneaking on in the middle of the night, at the cost of sleep, of course. And my phone has internet (at the price of MONEY!! $$). And yeah. The best? Use it in college. I get to come home late though... XD

So, the time now is 5:02pm on a Thrusday evening and it's raining outside. Don't mind getting caught in the rain, though not like this afternoon where I was totally drenched. I'm like a wet cat when in the rain for some reason. It's like getting my hair totally wet, and it's a bother because it's cold in class. Meeooowww... I'ma cat that hates the rain, lol. ^^

nah, I actually like the rain. just don't like getting drenched on a college day. XDXDXD

Listening to: Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven. >.> Don't know why. It's a stress relief.

I miss chu, DANTE!!!!!! *wails* I miss the bantering between us!!! I miss the little fights and the little talks we both have... okay, so maybe it's my fault I got into the mess, but.. nah.. hold on a minute. Maybe it's mine, maybe it's yours, we won't know, eh?

okay, that's all for today... at least. I'm heading home....

Jade out. ^^

Excited out of her mind

2008-07-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

Just like last year. Omg, I know I shouldn't be excited, but I am!! Because this is so cool! It's the BON ODORI NO MATSURI 2008!!! Woot! Only two more days left, and zomg... I just can't sit still! Last year I was sick with a sore eye and all, and I couldn't sleep the entire night just because I was so excited... and this year, I'm excited again, and two days earlier... *cries*

I don't know what's wrong with me, man!!! What's going on?! Jeez... thinking that it's my first time going, I'm supporsed to be excited, but this is my second time, so I'm ranting away here, trying to put out as much of my excitement as I can by typing fast, hahha...

*Sighs* Okay, first I have to call up Sensei and ask her if she's going. Because if she isn't, I won't have any transport to go and I'll be getting worked up for no reason at all.... Then.. if she says YES, I can jump, run, scream and do whatever I like cause I'm GOING FOR BON ODORI!!!!!!!!!! YEEEAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Ahem... a bit too excited over there... >.>

Pissy and Sleepy

2008-07-03T09:50:00.004+08:00

So I've been staying up till the witching hour of the chinese these past few days of the week. And why? Huh, just because I wanted to RP with my MySpace bf, Vergil. Okay, so maybe it isn't a real love, but it's love all the same, right? And he's so damn adorable! So I love him! But goddamn, my crazed mind wrote a malay poem to convey my feelings, lol. Luckily he doesn't know how to speak malay.... nor understand it...

Thank God for Europeans! XD

Cinta Khayalan
Tatkala hati dilamun cinta...
Maka tidak dikenali nyata atau fana...
Cintamu yang memang pedih...
Menusuk jantungku ibarat pedang yang diasah...
Namun ku tidak kesal...
Kata-kata mu disimpan...
Ibarat mimpi yang indah...

Cinta...
Maafkan daku...
Walau apa pun...
Ku tetap pasrah...

Kerana hatiku mencintaimu

Okay, so maybe I am crazy after all... XDXDXD

Royally flunked my Moral paper in college today. Holy shit.... but I still don't give a damn. (That sounded like a freaking lyric from some emo song... but I'm emo like that, so I don't care. =P) Half the class probably did, so I'm not repenting... yet. Just have to figure out some excuse to feed those parents of mine. Ugh, did I ever say? My brain is like a radio. The moment it hits the 'parent frequency', it turns off.

And I mean off, as in Autopilot off.

So I get stuck in my head while yeah, I still listen to them read me the Failing Act, but none of it ever goes in. Somehow that reminds me of Trish reading Dante and Vergil the Riot Act, and THAT never goes in either. XD

Agggghhh.... so I'm pissed and sleepy today.... and it's fucking raining outside. I'd eat in the Student Lounge, but the damnned guy is still on holiday, so I'm probably going to have to make the trip of Mc D's. Sigh.... another round of flirting with the worker, no? *giggles* It's really fun.. and I always leave the place with a triumphant smirk on my face. Wonder why my friends haven't noticed yet...

I'm dire need of coffee, i think. I already fell asleep on the train and it practically hurt to open my eyes. It was like needles dragging their points over my eyeballs, and the feeling wasn't particularly nice. I partially blame myself for staying up till 3:30am last night just to chat with Vergil, and I partially blame him for making me fall in love with him. >.>

Wedding rehersal this Saturday. I'm the usher, so I don't know why I should go... but then again, Maybe I should... just to see the fun. I went shopping last week in a shop-till-you-drop session, and omg, it WAS just like that! Well, I didn't buy every single article of clothing I saw, but I was hunting for a dress. A nice dress that I could wear for the wedding. Mom said it was going to be a sunset garden wedding, so I made the trip to Jusco Bukit Tinggi and went into Somerset Bay. Saw a really nice dress that I wanted, but holy shit!!! The price was way to high for me!!!! T^T

But anyway, I practically walked the whole of Jusco just to find the dress that I wanted. And in my mind, I was just thinking of Vergil the whole time. And Dante too, btw. So I was thinking of both my RP and RL bfs. Only I was focusing on Vergil more. I used to wear really flashy dresses that caught people's attenttion, but this year, I've kinda toned down a bit. And so began the hunt for a simple yet elegant dress that would make me look nice in it. You know, something like what Verge would like. Not too flashy, not overly dressed, nothing too colorful or shiny.

In the end, I walked into Nicole, and bought this really cute brown dress for like Rm80 or so... well, I think it was Rm80 since mom handled the money, not me. XD Just my taste for a garden wedding. I was quite content with it, and now I'm just thinking of the bare minimals for makeup. *Coughs* Since Dante said I look beautiful without makeup... >.>

Some bitch ran into me while I was crossing the road to the monorail station today. I mean, it was deliberate! She practically pushed me aside and kept walking. I was so surprised and pissed and I muttered the word "bitch" at her, but I guess she didn't notice, looking up her stuck up nose. Geez... be more considerate when crossing the road, woman! People have places to rush to as well, you know! >.<

Anyway, I'll go now.. since I want to eat lunch. I still have class with Mr Gerad after this, so I'll come back to add more. Kabilan's smoking outside... I think I'll go get him to bring me out for lunch, lol.... ^^

Emo

2008-06-25T10:23:00.002+08:00

I'm thinking of getting an emo hairstyle. Cause I'm a really emo gal at the instant. XD I don't really know why, either. It's just that feeling of wanting to sit in a corner and stuff and so... I even wrote a poem... again!

BELOVED
Love is nothing, the blood dripping
From a thousand scars the wolrd sees not
Crimson river of hate and pain
Years of loving all in vain
Trust me now, oh my beloved
Empty shell of flesh and blood
Screaming, crying, my soul cries out
Beloved, you have silenced me now

I posted it on Emo Love Quotes, and I don't know how many people would read it, lol. Anyway, I think I know what style I want. I want the razor cut style, with my bangs falling into my eyes. Not forgetting the crimson highlights that I want. Now all that's left is to fish out my eye liner, cause I'm emo like that. Hehehe.

I'm gonna emo myself and go to college. I wonder what the hell people are going to say, but I don't give a rat's ass. I'm me and I love being emo. Deal with it.

Don't like it? Then people who don't like it can go sit in a corner for all I now. I'm not changing. I'm the boss of no one! :P

Emo-ing My Days Away...

2008-06-24T15:14:00.004+08:00

Emo, emo, emo. I'm being an emo little girl for the month. Yeah, I don't know why... I just feel like sitting in a corner, lol. XD I told Eunice that I was a Blair Waldorf for the whole of last week, but she kinda liked it. She likes Gossip Girl too much, I think. But this week.. I'm feeling strangely emo. Like.. uh, I'm having my hair falling over my eye right now.. and I've been listening to wayyyy too much depressing songs, up to the point where I'm depressed. I think though... it's his fault.

Well, Dante came online last night, and I was really pissed (Still am pissed actually) that he got together with Lady in RP. Okay, so it's not supposed to affect how I feel in RL, but it does hurt, ya know... maybe it's the fact that he stays so far away from me, and I can't really put my full trust in him, though I do. Well anyway, when he came on, I was like, "Are you done messing with my head yet?" I didn't really ask him the question, but I yelled at the screen, crying all the way. Maybe he felt something, I don't know, but he told me he loved me and he missed me so much. He had some family problem to take care of, so he wasn't on as much as he should be. I know he doesn't love Lady like he loves me in RL, but I can't help but feel a bit.. hurt.

I mean, it does hurt to see someone you love marry a different person, right?

Yeah, so maybe this is why I'm feeling so depressed at the instant. But I still love him. I... may be a foolish little girl to put all my trust in this relationship, but maybe I'm so desperate for love that I just want to trust him. Either way... I love him with my heart and soul, and no matter what happens... I will still love him to the end.

I really am sorry, Dante.. if you're reading this. I don't mean to make you feel bad. I love you and I miss you so much...

Sigh.... I'm in college now, writing this during break. Hopefully I'll feel better by the end of the day and come back to write down another post. Yeah, that's what I'll do. I have business class now.. so... I'm gone.

Jade out.

(Be back later to write another post when I get home.)

A Moment to Stop and Think

2008-04-28T19:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder if we have the time to stop and think in our busy lives. Though I don't think my life is that busy (what with using the computer the whole day long, only stopping to sleep or go to college), there's.... rarely a moment's peace for me. No time where I can stop to really look around me, to feel the wind on my face, or to stop for a while and let the world revolve around me for a few seconds or minutes.

I sometimes miss the times I could spend alone, when no one's in the house, and I'm up early for once while my grandmother goes out. I'd take my mug of milo and sit right at the doorstep of the house (while waiting for the computer to warm up, of course. I still am a computer addict), leaning against the doorframe and letting the sunlight wash over me. It reminds me of my secondary school times in the assembly area, where I'll be sitting and dreaming and staring at the sky while the teacher drones on about discipline or something. (no offence there, but I was a student you know...)

Going to college is somewhat of a hectic rush. You rush out of the house, rush to catch the train, then rush to class. I rarely stop anywhere, and even if I do, I stop by the pet shop to pet the rabbits, or the bookstand to grab a comic for only a minute or two, then I'm on my way again. But isn't that what life's all about now? Keep going, keep pushing, don't stop for anything or you'll fall behind. 'Life is a rat race', I think that's how the saying went. We're so busy we don't even have time to stop and think anymore. And it's sad, isn't it? We're losing our humanity because of it.

There was a chinese man sitting by the exit of the passage that led to the monorail today, and he had an Er Hu, a traditional Chinese cello-like instrument. It's from the string family of instruments and the melody is produced by a bow. He was playing classical chinese pieces today with the accompaniment of music coming from a small speaker beside him.

For a while, I just stopped and listened, intending to spend only a minute or two. But the one minute turned into five minutes as I watched the rise and fall of the bow, the dip and swell of the haunting voice of the Er Hu. Money was in a bag by the man's feet, but a sign he had put on the ground said that "he hoped people listening to his music would feel happy".

For those five minutes, I forgot the world around me, focusing entirely on the music. I usually listen to rock while walking so my footsteps match the beat of the song, hence I walk faster than normal and I end up in college in time to rest a bit before class starts. But today, I turned off my music and I listened. And while I listened, something stirred in me. I felt a bit sad that not many (me included) know how to play the instruments of their own culture and history, and that knowledge is only left to those old and refined people you see sitting at the coffee shops while drinking coffee in a group, reminiscing about the past.

For a while, I was taken back in time, scenes of ancient China I'd seen in movies or pictures playing in my mind. So as I stopped for a while and listened, I found that deep inside, I appreciated my roots and my culture, the Chinese girl that was in me, that was me, though I wear the clothes, talk and act like a Western girl. A tourist was standing across me, and he was listening to the man play with a smile on his face, as though enraptured by the song. I knew I stood there with the same expression mirrored on my face.

But things come to an end, and that five minutes passed, time returning to me. I was back in the hectic world of modern life, with people jostling around me to cross the road. Almost reluctantly, regretfully, I turned away, ready to get back on track from my little pit-stop. The crowd pushing and rushing, cigarette smoke in the air, cars zooming and blaring their horns, rock music blasting in my ears, the momentary peace was gone and I was back in mordern life.

But as I crossed the street and rode up the escalator to catch the monorail train, three things lingered in my mind.

The way the world stopped around me for a while.

The echoing strains of the Er Hu floating across the street and playing in my ears.

And the sway of the man's body as he followed the song, the small, secretive smile he gave that seemed a bit wistful to me, as though he was reminiscing something of the past, a memory neither you and I will know, personally belonging to him....

Hamster Blues

2008-03-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

O.O

Yeah, you heard right. I gots myself a hamster. It's a little male Winter White (not so white la. It's actually grey, but the species is called Winter White. Tiny little fella), and kinda spunky. Tried to get out of it's box in the train. XD But it's cute la... thoughI think I need to get a new cage for it. The current one is so small! :(

But then right.... I bought the critter wihout telling Ma.... die la if I buy a big cage and Ma finds out. how am I gonna sneak it into the house without Ma noticing le? As it is, I think she's gonna find out bout Dante (me new ham-ham) soon enough.... cuz I'm hiding it in my room!

Uwahhhh... i know she won't like it lo, I spent at least RM25 to buy it le. RM20 for the hamster, RM5 for the mini cage. Put in the water bowl and the thing got no space to really run around lo! Haiiiyaaa.... Problem, problem... what am I gonna do now? I don't want my parents to know I spent RM25 to get a hamster.....

Besdies, I have a cat. XD

-----

Time cut (Chat box):

Me: Dammit.... where's Dante? *tap tap tap*

Me: Dante.....

Trish: Tell him he owes me money... XD

Me: XD

Half an hour later

Dante: I'm back

Me: DAAANNNTTEEEE!!!!

Trish: ^^;

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So how now la? I'm thinking of buying a larger hamster cage, but how am I gonna get it into the house and into my room? Die la, die la. I scared if I let mini Dante go, the Ham-Ham is gonna get into all the little nook and crannies in my room then escape. I don't wanna think about what my cat's gonna do if it finds it.

And than again, I still haven't done Daniel's homework yet. I really dun like his class la. He always seems pissed off about something. Lazy, lazy.... -_- How la now? I know a lot of people didn't do yet, but I'm afraid if he kick us out of class then how?

Haiiizzzz... sien.....

You know what ah? Suan le! Don't care la, haiizzzz... sien oni la... damn hard to do summore.....

What the hell??!! Where's Dante? And where's Vergil? Why disappear like that wan?! Omg, okla. Out lo. I wanna go RP-RP on MySpace liao.

Ciao.

Hamster dreams, everyone!

Patience Test

2008-02-27T20:45:00.002+08:00

Wahhh... Really a patience test..... *sigh* For once in my life, I got stuck on the train while coming back from college. Really la, as if going through Jalan Petaling isn't enough.

Number one, you always, ALWAYS have to push through the people there. Classes already end late, stalls are being set up in the street, there's practically NO space to walk, and you always get hassled by the stall owners, really stupid.. >.>

"Miss, Miss! Come and buy!"

"Perfume, very cheap..."

"Come Miss! Come and buy sunglasses!" (Sunglasses? It's night la, for God's sake! Who wants to buy sunglasses at night?! Siao ady la... Crazy, crazy, real crazy la, my life..)

"Miss... come and look at this bag/ buy this shirt.."

And then all the time I go, "Huh, oh... no need... nevermind la.. sorry... don't want...."
>.>
<.<
Roll my eyes to the heavens, and quickly latch on to Eu Shien's arm to avoid getting hassled again. Haiii..... wonderful life la.... *Sighs*

Today even worse. Rain until so hard... my intuition said, "Gal, something is going to happen today. Buy something to eat, or you'll be hungry on the KTM." So I did. I followed Eu Shien to buy a bun while Alana and Morgana waited outside the shop, then used the LRT to get to KL Central. Ok la, everything went well. Got on the KTM, no place to sit as usual, so stand, lean against the railing, reading book while listening to Japanese music.

Suddenly, after getting past Petaling, the train stopped. Normal la, cause sometimes we wait there for another train to pass in the opposite direction. Then suddenly, after five minutes of waiting, POOF! Out went the lights. Everyone in the train went O.O WTF?!, and looked around at one another before groaning/sighing/swearing and pulling out their cellphones and calling whoever they needed to call.

Man... pure toture in a train full of people, lights off and no oxygen.. T^T

Ten minutes later, the train went back to Petaling. The station master was like, "Tree on the line, power cut off, absolutely no train coming to or going past Petaling, bla bla bla..." then I found Raja from my class. Happily, he was heading to Port Klang, while I was going to Klang, so thank God I had company. Waited for another ten minutes, then the Station Master said they'll take us back to Central, but dun dun dun.... guess what?

When the train got to Petaling, we were happy.... BUT.... the driver came out, looked apologeticly at us, and said nope, we're stranded here, for eternity... Muahahahaha.....

Lol, jokin.. XD

So we were stranded in the worst place to be: Petaling Station. With no bus, no cabs, and absolutely no way to get home (which was about an hour's journey away). Of all the days... I had to be wearing my flip-flops instead of my crocs.. and my feet hurt like hell! The expression on my face was -_-# PISSED! My poor flippies... my poor feet..... AAUUGHH!!

But after an hour of waiting, we FINALLY got to go home! Raja was tired and hungry... I was just plain tired and pissed. My toes still hurt....

But on the bright side... tomorrow I might be going bowling!! Yeah!!! Sophia and me make a damn good team, hahaha! S and S! Wooo!!!

Countdown to New Year

2008-02-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

Yosh!! This is Stephanie coming to you live from my computer and it's Chinese New Year's Eve!!!!! The current countdown.... ONLY 25 MINUTES AWAY TO CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!! My cousin Natalie a.k.a. Rusti is here with me, and her font is gonna be purple Arial like this! ^^

So...... here we go! The past Year of the Boar has been..... eventful... if not unlucky for me... since the Snake was under Tai Sui... Cheh.... Go to the Horse la you, Tai Sui!!!!

Hee! To tell you the truth, I seriously have NO IDEA what my crazy little(big) cousin Stephanie, a.k.a. The Queen, *ahem* of all STRAWBERRY STRIPS( PS, this is the third try after queen of oranges and queen of apples...XD) is thinking about. IDRC. (For all those people out there who dont understand me, IDRC stands for ' I dont really care'.) All I care about is my MARVELOUS NEW early BIRTHDAY PRESENT, My beloved, White Nintendo DS Light!! HAH! Take that Joshua! I win!!! You owe me 386 emoticons!

Are we done yet? *Shifty Eyes*
>.>
<.<>~~I think I'll freaking murder him in my dreams tonight so I can steal it...>.>~~ I actually wished that I would get his Wii when I threw Yee Sang today, lol! XD The joys of being a ~~younger~~ older cousin... Geez... STFU, Ashley!! If you're reading this, then I love you, and you better get me that Shinigami outfit!! *glomps*

Countdown update: 9 more minutes. O.O LE GASP!!!!!

My turn! Scoot over!!!

(WE INTERUPT THIS BROADCAST DUE TO CONSTANT NUDGINGS AND COMPLANINGS (& COMPLETE INSAINITY) GOING ON BETWEEN OUR TWO *COUGH REPORTERS COUGH* WHICH WILL THEN RESULT IN EITHER THE KEYBOARD GETTING SMASHED, OR DEAR SOLENE HAVING TO SCOOT ASIDE WHILE HER FACE LOOKS LIKE A SOUR PRUNE, AND RUSTI DOING A VICTORY DANCE ATOP HER CHAIR. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE. *Irritating tinkling music starts to play, until someone can't get the Teen Titans Tune out of their head and smashes the tv.. I mean, computer...* AND NOW, THE SHOW MUST GO ON...)

*Does a Victory Dance atop her chair*

VICTORY IS MINE!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

COUNTDOWN UPDATE!!! ONLY 1 MINUTE LEFT PEOPLE!!!

*Ahem* DAH DUH DUH DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im back people!!! Didn't think that -

*Cuts Rusti off* HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, PEOPLE!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! *Screams loud enough to match the fireworks going on behind*

*AHEM!!!!!* That...was....RUDE!!!!! Anyway, continuing, didnt think that the quietness would last, did you? HAH! You will NEVER get rid of me, NEVER!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
...:D......eeerrrrr......SUGAR RUSH......BYEBYE!!!

Frustrated

2008-01-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

Frustrated that my browser's so slow, thats what.

Continued Warmth of a Phoenix, and creted a new story, nuff said.

Will write later, cuz I'm in college right now...

Uwahhhh!!! I want Kim Harrison's new book, 'For A Few Demons More'!

~Rukia~

Damn it

2008-01-02T18:53:00.001+08:00

I FORGOT I WAS WRITING A STORY!!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!

I'D SO BETTER CONTINUE OR I'M DEAD!!!

THIS IS GOING TO HAUNT MY DREAMS, I SWEAR IT!!!!!

*Hangs head and cries*

I can't believe I forgot... I can't believe I forgot....

T^T

~Rukia~

Behind These Hazel Eyes

2007-12-16T17:18:00.000+08:00

Well.... Kel's decided to end it all. It was really hard to take at first, me loving him and all... but... I guess life has to move on. It's killing me to turn and leave him, walking away from all the memories I had, but it has to happen, for his sake and for my sake.

But I can't deny the fact that it hurts. It really hurts.

Somehow, I feel that what I'm doing is a mistake, and that I'll never find someone as sincere and as loving as him... but if it's what he wants, then so be it. I'll find someone else to piece me back together again one day...

Or never at all.

I might just decide to live with a broken heart. Go through life being broken inside. Because I can never find someone like him. I don't know... I just feel hurt. I feel like.... I'm a mirror and he's thrown me away, and I've shattered into a reflection of what I used to be.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Heheheh.. Bored...

2007-12-03T18:14:00.001+08:00

I wanna dye my hair in highlights of crimson red...

Nuff said...

xD

~Rukia~

Red Oven

2007-12-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

Wah, Saturday night damn nice, man... Okla, went with Keasha to her aunt's cafe, the Red Oven cafe. Fuh, the food there nice to eat. Price oso quite reasonable la. When I walked in I was like "..O.O... Thay have a boutique!" Then I turned and omg, I saw... "Shui Yee...." So I just went -_- and kept quiet, hehehe... But that didn't stop me from asking Keasha lots of questions about her.... xD Junior what... of course I'll be asking questions...

Must get more MGS girls to come.... =D Mebbe I'll tell Gladys to have a party there one day...

Haizz, but what I want to do is bring my boifren laa... There's this cosy little corner for two ppl, with cushions and all, next to the boutique. Quite romantic, leehhh.. (Sucker for romance, hahaha) so if I can't face him, then I can turn and look at the clothes instead (and pretend to be interested in them while letting my 'Honey' admire the side of my face. xD

So fast December liao.... I must really make up my mind la... I hate Form 6 and that's a fact. But the only way out is to go college... and do law. Not what I want to do, but my parents are forcing me to do. Nvmla! Work hard, study hard and support my husband and kids.

Siao meh? I haven't even married yet la, hihi... But I don't mind marry young la.... As long as first child by 25 (as Gladys plan ady), ok lo!

YDP coming ady!! But then right, I won't be home for Christmas... means I'll be spending Christmas in camp. ^^ How sweet... at least there'll be a Gala Dinner!! But then again... I feel bad for my MySpace friends... they're probably expecting me on to celebrate Christmas with me...

Chanel makeover tomorrow! Yesssshhhhhh!!!! I looove makeovers!!!

And I love Jay Manuel too.. He's absolutely HAWT!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU, JAY!!! *fangirl scream*

KK la....... dunno what to write ady... nothing else to write, lolz.... got once I kena caught dancing, ahaha... so embarrasing.. pai seh.... better don't dance liao.....

New Haircut

2007-11-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

Omg, new haircut, yayyyyyyyy!!!!

I still wanna highlight my hair red, lol...

But neways, I went to Ahead, the saloon near MGS, and got a student cut. The guy there looks reaaaaalllyy freaky, but he was kind and patient (cause I had no idea what I wanted to do with my hair), and after looking me over, he got to work.

Did I mention that he's a pro?

Damn, only 5 minutes!! Or less than that, maybe... I swear, all he did was pin my hair up here and there, slice off some parts rapidly with his sisscors, comb the layers out and voila! Done and amazingly styled!

How does the guy do it, I wonder? Sheer casualness... like the sisscors grew out of his hand or something...

But anyway, I'm satisfied with my hairstyle, wheeeee!!!

NEXT TARGET: Highlighting my hair with red streaks!!!!! ^^

Uh, should my normal maroonish red do, or should I go for a bold, fiery crimson like Renji's? Or should I go blonde? Nahhh... maybe the crimson would be nice.... *wicked grin*

Le Gasp!

2007-10-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

At last, she's doing it. Yachiru (not her real name... she just LIKES being called Yachiru cause she's so damn CHILDISH) is going to leave her home tomorrow! After years and years of bieing totured, she's gonna leave! YEAYYYYY!!!!!!

She's my best friend, hehehe... of course I'll be happy.

She's gonna stay in a welfare home for the time being (at least I think so), and I'm happy cause at least she's gonna be well treated there. So tomorrow I'm following her to Southern Park to talk to Ms. Elizabeth and take a look around the welfare home to see what it's like. You know, I preally pity her.... she's normally positive and optimistic and cheerful to the core, but the way her mother and aunt abuses her.... she's totally drained emotionally and physically. I mean, she cries most of the time now because of that. She didn't do anything to deserve being abused, so why are they treating her that way?

Gahhhh.... if I had my way, I'd save Yachiru from that Hellhole a long time ago. The whole class is concerned about her, excluding a certain taichou (No comments.... my friends will know who), and are going all out to help her. You can imagine our screams of delight when Yachiru walked in after meeting Pn. Rama and announced that she's going to pack her bags, draft a long letter and leave. I'm happy, she's happy, we're all happy. WoOoooOooooOoo!!!!!

And it's on to clubbing in Sanctuary at The Curve this Friday! ^^ Thank you, o' Gladys and Siew Kim..... LOL!!!!!!!!

Huarrrggghhhh

2007-10-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

Form 5 convo coming this Saturday liao. Ok la, damn boring last year, but then since I'm Senior this year and I'm in charge of the robes, I don't quite care. As usual in KEC, this Saturday morning, at 7:30 am.

Shit la.... I kinda forgot that every Saturday morning I wake up just to meet a certain taichou online.....

I miss him, man. One week ady he never come online at all. Worried also, actually. Cause I know it's like him not to come on (busy with work), but then again, he does take time to send me message and tell me he's okay and not to worry. One week liao... why never come online? Feel so damn sad la...

My bf, the workaholic. (sigh)

Pissed off at my SonicStage program cause it's not saving my Zaraki Kenpachi Bleach Beat Collections. Dunno what da hell's wrong with it. Irritating me to the max, mebbe I have to get it from another website, I dunno la. Or I'll just have to twiggle around with it and figure out what happens next.

I'm so going to kill myself if a certain taichou comes online on Saturday. Cause that's the only time I'll ever get to talk to him. Haaaiiiiiii......... I MISS YOU, KEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In Melaka

2007-10-14T16:17:00.001+08:00

Heh... so I've been a sour pig for the whole of yesterday. It changed, cause Nii-sama messaged me and told me FIRMLY that I was to have FUN and I wasn't to be a SOUR PIG. ~~his real name is Kel, btw...~~. I decided that since I love him and all, I'll be a goooodddd sister and girlfriend and follow whatever he says. And I must admit, he's really reassured me a lot.

Cause what I'm finally doing is to enjoy myself. Though I'm only left with one day and will be back on Monday, I'm finally using my last night to enjoy myself... with a walk down Jonker Street. I'm on a shopping spree again... Damn, there're just too many souveniors to be tempted by. (Laughs) Neways, I'm searching for a something special so I can send it to Nii-sama...

Long time since I tasted Melaka food again. I'd forgotten how nice it was. Gladys told me that she wanted to go next month. Ye ye.. now at least THIS will be fun!!

Haiii.... ok la.. I'm actually still halfway researching Egyptian stuff... So I'll write back tomorrow or something la... Just thought I'd take a break and blog bout something.

Really la... I was damn sour yesterday. Though I got the 58 vol. of Detective Conan. WAHAHAHA!!! Si May Eng, You makan ur own heart la, WAHAHAHA!!! APTX4869 beat you liao!!!! ~~Damn master...~~

Wheee! Back to my research. I hafta go bathe in half an hour's time.

PS: Shuuichi Akai Rox!

Feeling So...

2007-10-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

I don't even know what I'm feeling now, seriously...

I guess I just feel lonely...

Geez.... here I am, all alone at home, layaning my blues... (by the way, 'layaning' isn't a valid Malay word.. don't follow my example, little kids...) while my friends are having fun drinking coffee together in Station 1, celebrating someone's birthday...

Pathetic...
My life is pathetic...

What can I say, that's how I feel sometimes...

Wei, nothing to write liao..

Just want to rant so I feel a bit better, but anyway, exam these whole week. Follow Siew Kim's example la, ka ka ka...

She damn funny la... din study at all. Din even do one question for PP today. What la she... ppl do exam, she foldin paper aeroplane at the back. Kuakakakaka... but nevermind la.. I damn kao lazy la actually. My life sux...

So what now? Nothing much la.. Go finish layan my blues..

Hey, Ishida-nii, if yer readin this, don't mind me, yes? I'm just feeling a bit depressed and angsty as usual today. Oh, and thanks for coming back to see me. >=/ Been a while since ya talked to me last, don't you think bro? Love ya!

Kk la...

Out first...

Shit la, I'm soooooo damn depressed...

Wa Lao Wei...

2007-09-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

So damn lazy to study la. Haizz... benci la, Form 6, wish I went college instead. Wat la... Nowadays like damn kao boring only. Go school listen to crap, watch people fight, mengumpat some certain gal, come home eat lunch, use computer, sleep, use computer again, eat dinner, watch tv, sleep...

La... no life la...

Pathetic entry. ^_^

Or rather, pathetic life. Do nothing in school today except sing only, hahaha! Exam on Monday, but never study at all... Nevermind laa... why wanna tension, right? Hehehehe, Umi's words exactly...

Xan and Divine-sama did new piccys! Yeah! =D

Dante... looks... so.... effin... HAWT!!!!!!

Meh... and it seems that Nii-sama's disappeared for a bit.. leaving me single for a while....

KAO BORING LAAA!!!! I WANNA PLAY AUDITION BUT A STUPID SOMEOME STOPPED MY DOWNLOADING!!!!!! DAMMIT!!!!

Okay la... out first... Wanna watch "Over The Rainbow".

Shit la... I miss Byakuya (not real name la... he damn shy guy wan... met him on MySpace, told me not to put his real pic or use his real name on Internet. Don't believe me, just go my homepage and check lor... he's the second one in my top friends. Obvious la, his nickname there is *Vizard* Kuchiki Byakuya.)... I damn depressed, man.. without him...

Yesterday also Lantern Festival.... no play la... just play candle only wat.... hahaha!

Bride in Dream... I damn noobish la, my score..... shit...

Aiya, ciao first la! My show start liao!

Je Chante Pour Passe Le Temps

2007-08-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

Je chante Pour Passe Le Temps...

Arrrggghhh... wish I could get the score or the Mp3 la... so hard, so hard... listen to it also I think I die liao trying to play it, hahaha! Cuz it's Byakuya's song.. and I love him so much, huhhhh... Sigh... Renji/Steven came online on the 28th.. but he didn't talk to anyone. I hope he didn't get hacked. But I swear to God that I MISS him!! It's been ages since I last talked to him, or I got a message from him! Oh God, Steven... I hope that you're okay, wherever you are right now! Please, please don't be dead. Don't die on me... because if you do, I don't know what I'll do without you... Stay alive for me, Steven.. please...

Sigh, and school sux, dammit. Our seniors has so conveniently decided to call off the Farewell party/Prom at the Royal Klang Club at Jalan Istana because they "suddenly" found out that they didn't have any transport, and only 5 could come. I'm so stressed liao, man!! The whole Lower 6 bertungkus-lumus wanna collect enough money so the Upper 6 could have their party and fun, so desprate until we're selling Nasi Lemak and sandwiches, and even going as far as asking the teachers for sponsorship money! All our freaking efforts went to waste today. I almost cried. No wonder Siew Kim meletup twice today la.... I wouldn't want to get into Siew Kim's bad books.. she's scary when she's mad. No one tries to stop her when she's shouting.

Stress... stress... sometimes I wish I had someome to talk to. I miss my two brothers, Ishida and Byakuya ~~though I think Byakuya can hardly be counted as a brother now~~ cause they rarely come online when I do. I do get messages from Byakuya la, but I wish it could be like the times when he and I could chat together for hours. Ishida... okay, school so I don't blame him. But then again, I have to learn to stop depending on them so much, hahaha. Hmm, but as for Byakuya... I guess I have to come to terms with my feelings. Sigh... ~~Father, forgive me for I have sinned. I have a deep, dark secret about what me and my brother are doing and..........~~

Yayyyysss! Tomorrow is MERDEKA!!! Ye ye... xde sekolah, ye ye... Ai, but then I hafta go to church, damn... that's even more boring than not getting to use the computer. I'm scared, though... what if Nii-sama comes online while I'm gone?! Haiizz... bad luck la, maybe. Nevermind la.. I guess I'll just keep singing 'Jalur Gemilang' and 'Warisan' tomorrow. Can't find Sudirman Mp3 for that song la.. I wonder why. I've been trying the whole of this afternoon, but still can't. Anyway, I"m feeling a bit patriotic today, hahaha. Singing 'Warisan' the entire day long, lol. MGS also had their celebration today. Omg, Khayma is so childishhh!!!! I'm sometimes embarassed to be her friend, man! She jump jump jump in the hall today, like what only la! Everyone staring at us, so pai seh! Cheh... x malu punye budak... -.-
Oh ya! Hungry Ghost almost over! Aiyo... I geng man... watching 'Kakashi' last week, and then 'The Death Curse' day before yesterday. Omg, I don't know why I'm watching ghost movie when I'm not supposed to! Geez... hafta be careful. Respect the dead.

Ah well... guess that's it. I drew a potrait of Byakuya today. Yesh, at last it's finished for my bro, hahaha! And I made a nice pic too! ^^

Sore ja... sayonara to iterasshai!

Meteora For The Broken Soul

2007-08-26T18:58:00.002+08:00

"Don't Stay"- Well damn..... I wish she would just go away and leave me alone. This enire week has been the happiest week of my life, with me being alone. I hate her. I wish she would just leave and never come back. She makes me feel, empty, hollow... like my Chain of Fate has been ripped out of my chest. Go away, please go away.. and leave me alone.

...I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away...

"Somewhere I Belong" - I hate my life. I fucking hate my life. There are sometimes that I really wanna give up, drop to my knees and end my own life. Huh... how I wish I could do that. I don't belong here. I need to be in a place where I can truly be happy. Cause I ain't happy here. But you know what? The ironic thing is, I won't allow myself to die. My stupid fucking mind makes me get up, push on, plow through life stubbornly. Maybe... I should freeze my heart like Byakuya... not feel a thing at all.

...I will never know myself until I do this on my own
Cuz I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today...

"Lying From You"- I must confess. I'm a liar. I've been lying for most of my life now, and it's all because of her. I can pull off any lie... casually and with a straight face. I'm a good actress, pretending to be someone I'm not. Pretending to be such a submissive little girl, while behind their backs I curse them from the bottom of my heart. My whole life's a lie... Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite... but then again, maybe I am. I want to be myself, but I can't. I fool everyone with a smiling face, angelic words... while deep down I curse and hate myself and cry for doing so, bitter tears of rage and helplessness. I'm trapped.

...I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk
Of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that
And this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person
Really is me and I'm
Trying to bend the truth
The more I push
The more I'm pulling away
Cause I'm
Lying my way from you...

"Faint"- Fuck it all to hell and back. Life is freaking unfair. What am I? Who am I? Questions I ask myself at times.... Heh, I wonder. These scars on my arms don't give me anything but a twisted sadistic mix of pleasure and pain. I'm all alone. Or am I? I may be insane for all I know.. maybe I am. How many nights do I cry alone in my bedroom, lamenting the life I never had? Mourning the fact that I'm alone? Tasting the sweet bitter tears that run down my face into the corners of my gasping mouth, a river of the anger and loneliness I feel? Sometimes I don't know who I am or what I want. I want much to have someone by my side, yet I still want to be left alone. Heh... what the hell am I, I wonder....?

...I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everyone can see these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I got...

"Breaking The Habit"- Have you ever known the feeling of getting addicted to pain? It's giddying... high... and absolutely wonderful. The feeling of slicing your skin open, the crimson blood that ever so ~~lovingly~~slowly wells up and runs down the side of your arm, the bitter but relieving pain that follows? it's pure heaven for me. It's like a drug. Once you start, you can't stop, and each time you see a blade, or you see something sharp, or when you're so broken and overwhelmed, you just want to hurt yourself in anyway possible. It's habit, no... it's a drug. And I'm addicted. I can't break this habit, but I can break my ~~self~~ skin.

...I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Tonight...

"From The Inside" - I'm slowly freezing.... or breaking apart maybe, I don't know... from the inside. My heart is cold, frozen.. yet I can still feel the pain of a thousand scars, like barbed wire wrapped around it. It won't be long when I'll completely fall into my darkness, losing myself in the process to become an unfeeling shell. I don't know what to do.... I can feel myself slowly, but surely breaking.

...Tension is building inside, steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way, out of me
Trying not to break
But I'm so tired with this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring and time between
And how, trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me...

"Numb" - I'm numb. Nothing makes me cry any longer, except for the times when I allow the salty liquid to run down the sides of my face. I feel so numb because my heart has become nothing more than a lump of ice, anything hurled at me I don't feel any longer. Nothing. You can say you hate me, you can take out your anger or rage on me, but I won't feel anything. I can't feel anything at all.... unless some person knows how. And I'm waiting for that day for someone to thaw me and bring me back to life.

...I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the presurre of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow...

___________________________________________________________________

My song, my theme... is "Numb". Please, anyone... just save me from myself.....

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Forgotten

2007-06-25T19:06:00.000+08:00

(Farenheit guys are the smex! ^_^)

Amazing.... I totally forgot I had a blog...... But that's me for you laa, always the forgetful gal! =) But anyway, I guess my life's going pretty well, as far as I can see. MGS Canteen Day is just around the corner and hopefully, if Azimah the Dragon Lady can approve our pleas, we can get a hold of Daniel, Suki, Cape Town Clan, JJ and Rudy from Hitz.fm and other singers that we can come up with to come for a mini comcert at our school. Well.... if not, it's up to Plan B. Jual Sate ngan spagetthi jerr....

Watching Hana Kimi at the instant! Omg, Rui Xi found out that Quan knows she's a gal!!! (Screams) ~~But he knew that for a long time, lol......~~

Orientation went well laa.... not as bad as I thought it would be. ~~Nevermind, nevermind.... next year our turn to rag, ha ha ha!~~ I didn't end up with a mixture of flour and egg on my face, Shyamini did, but I had lipstick drawings on my face... made me look like Pikachu, they said. But cute loh! I mean... not everyday that someone comment you look like Pikachu, riiiight? Even Puan Kavitha said I look cute, heh.

Full moon celebration for my new nephew, Samuel Lim Kai Ren. Wahhh... almost six weeks liao! Cute guy, man! Best part is, Benjamin ko ko came to the mini renunion, along with Eunice and Elliot. Aiyaa, too bad Damien ko ko not around.... then I can ask him about my Trinity Blood cds that he was supposed to burn....

Or maybe I should just stick to Ouran High School Host Club. ~~Tamaki-senpai is just too cute!~~

Hmmm, Fate/Stay Night is FINALLY showing in Malaysia, astro channel 25, Animax, every 7pm. I watched till Episode 14.... cause Archer died.... NOOOO!!!!! WHY??? ~~I loved Archer so very much!! I can't believe he died!! Noooo!!!!~~ Sigh... after seeing him die... it's like... I don't have anymore semangat to watch liao.... cause... my love is dead... waahhhh!!! (cries)

Raining again?! Oh man..... It always seems to be raining nowadays.... Terrible laa....

Yay! And Deidara's still alive!!!! Thank God! I thought Senpai died when Sasuke dragged him to the ground!

OMG!!! SUMMER LIVE CONCERT IS COMING!!!!! 11 AUGUST 2007 AT PADANG IPOH!!!! AHHHH!!! I WANNA GO!!!! More details next blog.

Stopping Warcraft for the time being.... Servers seem to lag most of the time. Being a Night Elf is always nicer than being a Human. But then again, my Blood Elf character isn't too bad when I play the Horde Server. Alliance is always full.

Oh gosh! Quan is admitting to Rui Xi? Gtg, cause I wanna watch! Wu Chun is the smex! ^^

Luv, der Shinigami Kuchiki Rukia =)

(The charming guys of Ouran High School Host Club, and one gutsy damsel.)

End of holidays... sigh...

2007-06-10T18:02:00.000+08:00

End of holidays!!! No way man.... I really hate havin to go back to school! T__T Rather busy this past few days, so here's an account of what I did.

Wednesday:

Relatives came over from Singapore to visit my ~~newborn~~ three-week old nephew, Samuel Lim Kai Ren. Small fella and very cute lorr.... ~~giggle, giggle~~. Larry ku ku, Anuty Jean and my three cousins, Ian, Christie and Matt picked me and my mum up at 5, kua... and we went to Shah Alam to James ko ko's apartment. So got to meet my cousin James and Aurelia jie jie, listen to Beethoven for a bit (without my friends complaining in my ears), drink hot chocolate, and go makan dinner.

Thai food. Yum to me! :)

Christie said the food was a feast.... I think so too la... Cause we ordered nine dishes or so... Pineapple Fried Rice, Tom Yam Soup, Tauge with Salted Fish, Mango Kerabu, Chicken Feet Kerabu, Prawn Cakes, Chicken with Basil Leaves, Claypot Tofu, Green Santan Curry, and Fish Curry. Wa seh.. makan pun takkan habis la... I walked out of there with a bloated stomach... And still not gone to the gym yet.... -_-;

Thursday:

Okay, okay.... this is the day I went shopping for an outfit to wear during Mr and Mrs Ooi's luncheon. Popped over to One Utama (1 U.) at about 11 am to check stuff out... wanted to go Mid Valley, but traffic jam, so can't. 1 U. seems to have a lot of discounts or so... die man! First store I went in: ROXY. Number one rule for me and Eunice, the first store you go in must always be Roxy. Sigh.... so expensive.... range of prices were from RM40+ to RM300++. Saw one necklace that I liked.... cost about RM79.50. NOT ENOUGH CASH!!!!
So decided to go to Colours after all. Wow, the salesgirl there treted me like a Ku Niang or something. She was so friendly and kept on bringing me clothes to try. Tops, skirts, jeans, even a prom dress.... Guess I was just a little itchy to try it on... Looked so hot hanging on the rack... In the end, because of my limited budget, I got myself a skirt, belt and two tops. Wonderful me.

Colours
Belt: RM9.90
Short Blouse, Black: RM49.90
Short Skirt, Cream: RM49.90
Sleeveless Blouse, White: RM34.90

Ka ching, ka ching! There goes my purse. One more stop was at Topaz, where I just couldn't ~~resist~~ buying a silver ring cause it looked all shiny and nice.

Topaz
Silver ring: RM13.00

In the end, spent about RM160+

All in all, nice day out. ^^

Saturday:

Did nothing much on Saturday excpet zzzzzzzzz the whole morning before going to APT to blow my hair. Sigh... APT is like Ai Ching Mo Fa Shi, except that there's no Ming Dao, Fei Nan Du or Richie to do your hair in their magical way for you. ~~MING DAO!!! AHHH!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!~~ But okay la... considering the stupid thing I did to my hair the night before.... braided it tightly and tied a knot instead of clamping it. Woke up with a horrific hairstlye when the knots got stuck....

At least they got my poor frizzed hair back into shape! Thank you, thank you, APT!

After that, straight back home to watch reruns of Prince Turn Into Frog... ~~Kyaaa!! MING DAO AGAIN!!!!~~

TODAY:

Walked into the hotel ballroom like the princess I was ~~yeah, right~~ looking good and feeling good in my new clothes from Colours. My hair was all nice and straight again, thank God for that... got a few compliments here and there about the texture of my hair and "if I did rebonding at the saloon." "Oh, no... I just use shampoo and conditioner..." Heheheh.... yes, people would kill for my hair.... all naturally straight and shiny and soft and smooth... *cough cough*.

Luncheon was okay, with lots of hotel food. Well, hotel food rocks for me... I really like it. Kelly, Eunice, Yih Ting and Jessica were around so I wasn't really bored. What can I say? I really like being treated as a princess. I feel like I was born for the finer things in life. Hmm... makes me wonder what my past life really was....

Oh well.... back to school again tomorrow. Can't believe the holidays are over... this sucks big time. Orientation goes for one week, then studies begin. Damn, I hope it'll be fine... I totally hate going to school...

Two new pics! I drew fanpics of Grimmjow/Inoue and Renji/Rukia! They're up on Deviantart so you can take a look at them there.... or rather... I'll put it here instead.. but comment it on my Deviantart account, plsss....

Deviant account: http://mazdakitsune.deviantart.com/

Sakura Ame

Untie These Chains...

Wa seh... new blog again....

2007-06-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... you can say that I'm totally a blog person... but never true to one blog at all. can create so many, and yet after a while forget and leave it. But then again.... I'm like that. Totally messy, unorganized, and errr.... never mind la... Let's just leave it.

So school's starting again at the end of this week. Sigh... back to MGS. Wish i could get into One Academy or Taylors, but as usual, my life isn't controlled by me. Supposed to go to Mid Valley with Eunice today, but I gave it up because of something, and now I regret. Wanted to get that Guess jeans I saw the other day. RM300, (sei lorr... bo lui, man....) but I guess I can scrimp till I get enough. Can't believe my ang pow money totally running out. Must be the Mp3 and the excess spending I get when I go out. ;)

Last Wednesday went to watch Pirates of The Carribean: At World's End with Wai Yin at Jj. Luckily, we got there early, cause by the time we went back to TGV after buying tickets, it was kao full already. Ki siao liao, almost like the time me, May Eng, Mei Yin, Huay Fern, Su Yong and Michelle went to watch Spiderman 3. So hot and can't move at all, and we got third row from the botton, corner. Wow, lucky thing I told Wai Yin to pick me up at 10:00 am. If she didn't, I'd probably be getting front row seats... again. We managed to get middle row, second from the top. Funny thing is, I didn't see any other MGSians on that day...

Okay, okay, gotta admit. I'm still on Pirates High after the show. I mean, I can't believe Chow Yun Fatt's role was a minor one. Haiii... nevermind la. So the next show after this might be Shrek 3, or Waris Jari Hantu. No idea why I want to watch that one. Probably because Maya Karin is acting in it. I heard it's boring, though. Pontianak Harum Sesundal Malam was nicer... but then again, I'm a sucker for ghost and horror movies.

Last Friday night... supposed to go bowling with May Eng, but Michelle was too busy, so we couldn't go and had to batal our plans. Spent the night watching Beauty and the Geek instead. Omg, the guys were.... really geeky. They don't even know popular music, except for studies. Reminds me, I was eating dinner at Asia Cafe outside Taylors and Inti that evening, and there were two techie geeks sitting by my table. I had so much fun listening to them while I chowed on pizza... even though I didn't understand what in the world they were talking about.

And now..... I'm just sitting at home cause it's going to rain... again.... weird, really wierd.... I don't like thunder and lightning. Used to hide under the bed for it. My hair's still highlighted reddish- maroon. Can't believe no one noticed it yet. Hopefully, Asiah won't notice at all when I go back to school. I miss choir.... eventhough the pressure was totally teruk. I love singing. I haven't gotten my clothes for this Sunday's luncheon yet. Eunice wants to go black and white, and we're trying to match. That means shopping for me, and I so have to find another day where I can go out and get my clothes. Jj, then if it's not Mid Valley.

All, cause nothing's left for me to write. Except that I'm still waiting.... heh..... I think Tres knows who...... and that person knows who he is..... ^///^

-out-